People hurt people, but it's also people who save them July 22nd, 18:53

"People hurt people, but it's also people who save them."

This is the word of the victim's bereaved family in the incident that happened in Osaka 21 years ago.

Yumiko Hongo (56), the bereaved family of the Ikeda Elementary School attached to Osaka University of Education, says that she has been suffering from feelings of hatred and anger for a long time with deep sadness after the incident. It seems that he gradually regained his calm feelings as he was called.

And she said she was a kid and she wanted to "make a place" for people who had similar feelings to herself, and she built a facility in a temple in Taito-ku, Tokyo.

The place is filled with the wish and prayer that she can take a new step even if she gets hurt.

(Osaka Broadcasting Station Director Ai Shirataki)

That day when the ordinary daily life was suddenly taken away

June 8, 2001, 21 years ago.

Hongo's daily life was suddenly taken away.

Yumiko Hongo

"It's natural to go and come back, and that's not the case. I can't take it very much."

Ikeda Elementary School attached to Osaka Kyoiku University where a man with a knife invaded the school and cut children and teachers indiscriminately.

8 people died.

Fifteen people were seriously injured.

Yuki Hongo, who died, was a second grader at the time.

She loves flowers and singing, and her dream for the future was a school teacher.

I'm about to be swallowed by sadness and hatred

It was despair and deep sorrow that I had never experienced that attacked Mr. Hongo, who was robbed of his beloved daughter.

In addition, there were feelings of anger and hatred towards the criminal.

Mr. Hongo said that he hated everything he saw because of his hatred for the criminal.

For example, even at the traffic light in front of the school, he was very angry, saying, "If this signal was red, the criminal's invasion might have been delayed and Yuki might have been saved."

Unfocused anger was also directed at herself, and she said she had even tried to die herself.

Yumiko Hongo

"I have tried to commit suicide with feelings of hatred that cannot be expressed in words, but it was not only sad, but the feelings of hating people were very painful. How can I do this? I can get rid of my emotions, but I can't get rid of them, because my daughter never comes back. "

"The preciousness of living" taught by my daughter's last "68 steps"

It is said that there were two reasons why he thought that he should support Hongo and change his power to live while he could not get out of his suffering.

One is the "survival figure" that Yuki showed me just before he died.

The end of Yuki-chan found in the field verification.

She was initially stabbed in the classroom and was supposed to die instantly, but she was actually fatally injured and she went out into the hallway and walked towards the exit.

At that distance, Mr. Hongo's stride was 68 steps, 39 meters.

What did the daughter think at the end?

Mr. Hongo went to the corridor almost every day and followed the traces of Yuki-chan's blood, which shows that he staggered step by step and was about to touch his hand.

In doing so, she eventually receives the message, "The preciousness of living."

Yumiko Hongo

"It may have been painful, sad, or painful as I followed, but that's not all. When I thought that I wanted to live, I was really deadly. I feel that what this child tried to convey is not only that, but also the splendor and preciousness of living, step by step. "

"Quiet cuddling" is the most supportive of your heart

Another reason Hongo decided to move forward even a little was the "closeness" he received from many people, from friends and neighbors to the families of crime victims who had never known it.

She said she felt "I'm not alone" because she snuggled up quietly.

For example, the bereaved family members who were similarly deprived of their families by crime who called out immediately after the incident.

Isao Okamura, whose wife was robbed in the incident, said, "You don't have to do your best. You can't do your best anymore."

In addition, Mamoru Toshi, who was robbed of his second son in the Kobe child murder case, said from his own experience, "Please take good care of your remaining children."

Yumiko Hongo

"I met the victim for the first time after the incident, and a person who lost a child or was in a crime position came and I could say that I could forgive or talk to him, or I would like him to be with me. It made me feel so strange. I remember being relieved to see that I was really worried with my eyes. "

Picture books received from friends are also "close to each other"

The picture books I received from my friends around me also helped me.

Picture books that arrive one after another after the incident.

At first, I was so shocked that I couldn't see the letters, so I just put them by my side.

Gradually, when I picked it up while thinking of the person who delivered it, he said that he was drawn into the illustrations, colors, and letters of the picture book.

By touching various emotions through picture books, he became able to face his own feelings.

Yumiko Hongo

"I didn't feel any letters or colors right after the incident, but I was happy with the feelings of the person who delivered it, so I was there. And I thought," This person chose it. " While I was doing it, my eyes suddenly went. When I opened it, there was something that overlapped with my feelings, and I felt healed by the pictures and colors, or I felt that I was able to have a dialogue in my heart, and if I noticed, read it. I was feeling the same as the main character, and gradually I was able to face my feelings. "

Many other people were worried and called out to me.

At that time, he said that he couldn't accept his feelings and lost his relationship, but he took the time to notice everyone's thoughts and said, "I'm sorry at that time, I really couldn't afford it. You were worried, "he said, and he was able to rebuild the relationship.

Yumiko Hongo

"Without that support, I probably wouldn't be alive now. I think that's true. I'm sure that I got the power of human life. I think that's the case. "

I want to create a place to "close up" to injured people

Mr. Hongo gradually regained his calm feelings with his daughter's last message and the closeness of the people around him.

This time, "I want to create a place to be close to people who are hurt and sad or suffering like myself" and "I want to create a place for those who are sad", in November, Taito, Tokyo. We built a facility in a corner of a temple in the ward.

It is a grief care library "Hikobae".

Grief care means "healing sorrow" and is to support people who have experienced various losses so that they can have hope.

Hikobae means "new shoots growing from stumps".

Mr. Hongo put a "wish for regeneration" in this place.

It is free to use by reservation.

Approximately 900 books on themes such as sadness and bereavement are lined up, and users can spend their time as they like and exhale feelings of sadness and suffering with peace of mind.

Yumiko Hongo

"We are sad and dark when viewed from the surroundings. Talking to people about negative emotions makes us feel like annoying people around

us. People who live while facing such emotions .

I hope that by telling you that there are other people, it will ease your feelings as much as possible. "

The newly launched "Hikobae" has been around for more than a year and a half since its establishment, and people who have died from important people due to incidents, accidents, disasters, illnesses, etc., and those who are currently suffering from illnesses and disabilities, etc. A total of more than 160 people visited.

Users have commented, "I can face the sadness in myself to my heart's content" and "I feel like I'm okay with it."

"I couldn't witness my father's last days" Yuki Hirama

Yuki Hirama (33), who visited "Hikobae" on that day, had regrets that he could not witness the end of his important family.

Mr. Hirama got a memorandum of Mr. Hongo when she was a junior high school student, and learned that she had the same name as Yuki who died, and she interacted with Mr. Hongo through correspondence.

This is Yoshio Hirama's father, who died last year.

Mr. Hirama went to Mr. Yoshio, who was sentenced to life expectancy due to pancreatic cancer, and then continued to take care of his surroundings and take care of him while living with him for a year and a month.

Mr. Hirama couldn't attend at the end because he was resting in the room next to him in the early morning of the day when Yoshio died.

Seeing him vomit and dying, he was struck by great regret that he might have been able to do more in advance.

Yuki Hirama

"I wish I had consulted with the hospital a little more, or if I had changed my sleeping direction, it would have changed. I didn't seem to suffer, but I remember the appearance of my clothes getting dirty and dying. hey"

Mr. Hongo introduced to Mr. Hirama a picture book called "Kaze no Denwa".

A "telephone with no connection" placed on the mountain by the bear's grandfather.

Rabbits and foxes want to talk to their families who can't meet.

And at the end of the story, it is tied that "everyone's thoughts have arrived".

After losing his father, Mr. Hirama repeatedly asked in his heart, "Are you happy?"

What he read and said was his feelings for his late father.

Yuki Hirama

"What I regret was that I couldn't be at the very end of the real end. I was there, but I didn't realize why. I'm told that I can't help saying that. "

Mr. Hongo also rushed to school that day when he learned about the incident in the news, but although he went near the daughter who was carried, he could not notice it in the turmoil and could not attend at the end. ..

Mr. Hongo told Mr. Hirama how he faced his feelings at that time.

Yumiko Hongo

"I was close to Yuki's carry, but I couldn't meet him.

At that time, I blamed him for not being able to meet him if I desperately searched for him. But the sound of the helicopter was terrible. I couldn't hear anyone's voice and no one could go to check it. I regretted it.

But after listening to various opinions, I thought about it and said, "Maybe I didn't want to show that to my mom." I thought.

I was really shaken. I didn't feel like that right away, but maybe it was. But I don't know the answer, but my love for you hasn't changed, it's been a long time. "

In response to Mr. Hongo's words, which he has faced with sadness over a long period of time, Mr. Hirama said, "I haven't recovered yet, but I will live today in my own way."

Yuki Hirama

"I'm not the only one who is sad to hear from Yumiko, but there are ways to overcome each, there are steps, and I'm wondering if I'm okay with myself now."

Ms. Yukiko Kato, who says "I feel uneasy"

Three years ago, Yukiko Kato (41), who had an experience of artificially stillborn a pregnant child, came to "Hikobae" with anxiety about attacking when she happened to be.

At that time, the name of the baby in my stomach was Hinako-chan.

This photo was taken when I went on a trip for her last memory.

Her doctor told her that her baby had a heavy diaphragmatic hernia and that she couldn't live even if she was born.

About a year after the sad farewell, Mr. and Mrs. Kato were given a new life.

Now, Mr. Kato spends calm days with her husband Yohei and the newly awarded Daisho-kun, but there are times when he is worried that this daily life will be suddenly taken away. It's called.

Yukiko Kato

"I think it's because something I thought happened happened. I wonder what to do if I lose this child again, and what will happen to me when I lose it."

Mr. Kato caught the eye of the picture book that Daisho-kun happened to pick up at "Hikobae" that came on that day.

The title of the picture book is "I'm not sad anymore."

It's a story about an old man who lost his wife and a girl who lost his grandmother, who weren't originally acquainted with each other, met in heaven and laughed hand in hand for the first time in a while.

After reading, Mr. Kato began to talk about feelings that he usually cannot easily talk to his family.

Yukiko Kato

"I'm very happy to grow up well now, but sometimes I'm really scared of how long that happiness will last ."

Yumiko Hongo

"That's right, that's what I am.

Yukiko Kato

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I feel like I can't recover when that happens."

Mr. Hongo talked about what he had experienced and sympathized with Mr. Kato's thoughts.

Yumiko Hongo

"You died at the age of seven. (My second daughter) I thought I could never exceed it. I was very scared to reach 12 o'clock in the middle of the night

. I have to think about living with more care than that.

And I can't tell people easily. So let's take a closer look at the present. "

The two naturally smiled during the dialogue.

Mr. Kato said, "It makes me feel different just to have people sympathize with me."

Ms. Yukiko Kato

"I think there will be many times when anxiety rises, but I also think that I have no choice but to look at the present, and I think I have no choice but to live that way."

People hurt people, but they also save people

Twenty-one years have passed since the deprivation of my beloved daughter.

Mr. Hongo wants to continue to connect the benefits that have been supported by many people by supporting other people.

Yumiko Hongo

"People are amazing. Each person has the power to live, and when they realize the power of life, they can lead to the power to live, or connect people to each other and connect to the next.

People hurt people, but I feel that it is the people who really save and help. "