(1)
A short while ago, something happened to me that caused me an unusual confusion. In fact, it terrified me. I felt that the effort that I had made over the past 3 months, in which I almost continued day and night, was in vain. I called everyone who, in my view, could help or give advice. I got upset and confused, then suddenly I stopped and asked myself: Why all this running?
You run while you are in the prime of your life, to win the prestige and power that you dream of. All your running
(2)
Who among us has the courage to decide when to stop running?
Is it right in the first place to stop?
Is running in order to fulfill the needs a necessity, resistance and a commendable struggle?
What do we want from the world?
And what do you want from us?
"If people are asleep died beware".
Are we sleeping even while we're running?
(3)
A person’s needs never end, as soon as he fulfills one, he thinks it is very important, until another appears to him, so he says: I finish it and then rest, then he finishes it, but he finds another and does not rest, and so on, until he becomes old, and discovers the extent of the absurdity that he spent a large part of his life in it.
You run while you are in the prime of your life, to win the prestige and power that you dream of. All your running.
Why not, and everyone urges you to do that, parents, teachers, writers, artists and wise men?
They tell you: Run in this worldly life with all your strength.
No one advises you when to stop to catch your breath, no one even talks to you about the fatalities of running.
On the other hand, do we have the luxury of choosing between running or not running?
Is it reasonable to ask a poor person who has 5 children, for example, to stop running and enjoy the moment, but is it reasonable for this poor person to be able to maintain his ability to run without taking a breath?
(4)
The competition excites you, you run faster, your breath stops, then you discover that you have misjudged, you are competing in something you are not good at, wanting to beat another who has this talent you think and discover that what this other person has you do not have, and that what you have does not have.
Rather, the goals differ, so how do you run for a goal that others run to?
Run for your goal, even if it's a fishing boat and a fisherman's hut on the beach.
You run to have your own independent business, when you are not good at it, and it is more convenient for you to be an employee of an entity.
You run towards the job as it guarantees you financial stability, while you are not suitable for it, but rather for free work.
You run to be a writer and you were born to be a doctor, you run to be a doctor and you were born to be a writer, and then you run to achieve a specific goal or you run for the running itself?
It is a kind of addiction that I claim to have, to work without interruption, all days of the week, throughout the months of the year, to feel remorse if you stop even for an hour, sometimes this feeling haunts you, the feeling of a noble student who does not want to waste a moment of his time except in studying, He is afraid that his parents will catch him resting for a moment.
(5)
On the other hand, do we have the luxury of choosing between running or not running?
Is it reasonable to ask a poor person who has 5 children, for example, to stop running and enjoy the moment, but is it reasonable for this poor person to be able to maintain his ability to run without taking a breath?
I enjoyed watching a movie about Dolton Trumbo - one of the genius American screenwriters - who was abused and imprisoned and accused of communism during the Cold War between the United States and the Soviet Union.
He was prevented from doing his work, so he resorted to writing under a pseudonym, and had to work day and night to secure his family's obligations. His daughter asks him to celebrate her birthday with her in the hall of the house, but he refuses to leave his room, because he does not want to waste even a little of his battle time. He actually runs at full speed until he wins, and returns to the arena officially, and he won what prizes he got, what is wrong with that?
Our lives on this earth, no matter how long they are, are limited. Is it logical to waste them without serious work? Is it wise not to run to achieve the greatest possible achievements before we leave this land?
(6)
To run or not to run?
I was so exhausted by this question, that I was led to what I think was the answer.
This world operates according to an amazing state of balance, and whoever realizes it has nothing but faith in a great power that created it and controls it, and any imbalance in this balance causes harm, and as much as the imbalance is, the damage is, as if the Creator wants us to control the course of our affairs with the same logic of balance, so we know When do we run and when do we stop, and we master the art of capturing the moment, and not letting it escape from our hands in the hope that it will come back to us, for it never comes back.
The working days I spent in the Arctic Circle will not come back and I wish they could be even two days longer, just two days I spend enjoying them.
The days of work I spent in the Amazon rainforest would never come back and I wished they had been two more days, only two days I had fun, and I promised myself and couldn't keep my promise, because I was jogging.
We need a delicate balance to judge accurately in an instant whether we should run or not run, we need to train our consciences to be as faithful to ourselves as they are to the idea of running.
To reduce our consumption, our excess needs are reduced.
To be contented, to breathe.
It's a thorny, repetitive decision, one that one doesn't make once in one's life and it's over.
Rather, we have to stop from time to time and ask ourselves about our present moment: does it
force us to run or not to run?