I am 46, married, two children.
I cheated.
I am cheating.
And I'll cheat in the future too.
My husband is not allowed to know about it.
I love him, but I lie to him.
It's a dichotomy that probably most people who cheat on their partner are stuck in.
We live with a lie.
I'm tired of that.
Tilda Swinton is allowed to pose in turns with her husband and her younger lover.
People admire them.
But I am not allowed to talk about it.
That's why I'm doing it here.