The drone was a flightless bird, extinct for three hundred years.

The reason it disappeared was partly because it lacked the ability to protect itself.

It is in this capacity that Helena von Zweigbergk feels a strong identification: to be basically powerless.

In My Life as a Dront, the author wants to find out what the feeling of powerlessness is based on and why her life has become as it has become.

In an interview with Jessika Gedin in the literature program Babel, von Zweigbergk puts into words the difference she experiences between friendships and love relationships.

- Somehow I experience the friendship as if we are sitting backstage, where you can allow yourself to be true.

Then you enter family life or relationship life and then there are other rules that apply.

I have had a hard time in love relationships to have that kind of honesty, says Helena von Zweigbergk.

Women's “bullshitteri”

The author believes that the reason why honesty has failed in her relationships is about structures and expectations of how a woman should be.

- The whole "life bullshit" of this woman's life or what to say.

You should not grow up in a person who has clear dreams or who takes place.

There are so many ideas about what a woman should be that are connected with this queenhood, says the author.

Watch the entire interview in Babel, Sunday 20.00 in SVT 2 or in SVT Play.