"Don't cure 'you', we swear we won't return home!" ICU male nurse's Wuhan intensive care diary made people cry
Cao Zhimin
Male Nurse of the First Affiliated Hospital of Chinese University of Science and Technology (Anhui Provincial Hospital)
A month ago
He followed the first batch of Anhui medical teams
To Wuhan Jinyintan Hospital
Beginning with the new crown pneumonia demon "slap the wrist"
During the "epidemic"
He keeps a record of the extraordinary in every day in his diary
Touched and lost, happy and sad at work
Cao Zhimin at work. (Photo courtesy of the First Affiliated Hospital of the Chinese University of Science and Technology)
January 26
After receiving a call from the leader, let me hurry home to pack things and follow the big troops to Wuhan for support early in the morning. When I heard a slightly apologetic voice on the phone of the head of the department, I was silent for 30 seconds, and then replied firmly "Received". I am a non-talking person, but I know that in special times, everyone is always on call.
Hanging up the phone, I first called my lover Akin and asked her to help clean up the things first. When my lover heard that I was leaving the next day, my voice choked.
When I got home, Akin had already packed some items for me. Because it is the first batch of aid workers in Hubei, in fact, I do n’t know what to bring, I can only search the news to see what is missing in Wuhan at the moment.
In addition to daily necessities, the most I take is food. I eat a lot, and Akin was afraid that I would not be able to eat. I brought all the food I could bring at home, and even a one and a half year old son.
This evening, neither I nor Ajin said anything. I was thinking about what else to do at home. And I know that she didn't speak because she was afraid she would cry when she said nothing.
Before departure, Cao Zhimin and his lover hugged farewell. (Photo courtesy of the First Affiliated Hospital of the Chinese University of Science and Technology)
January 27
The weather in Hefei was still very cold. I rushed to the hospital to gather in the morning. After a brief mobilization meeting, I set off with the medical team. Some people's eyes are red and everyone's suitcases are full ...
Just before getting into the car, Akin hurried over. She is an obstetric nurse. She is on duty today and turned around after giving me a hug. Seeing her wiping the corners of her eyes as she turned around, I knew she still couldn't help crying. We didn't say anything, but a hug was enough.
In the early morning of January 28, the medical team arrived in Wuhan. Wuhan seemed to be quiet as if it had fallen asleep, with the shop doors closed, no lights, no pedestrians, no sound. I shouted silently in my heart: "Wuhan, hold on! Hold on! Medical forces across the country are rushing to treat you!"
I believe that every medical aid worker in Hubei, like me, silently vowed in his heart: "If you don't cure 'you', we won't return home!"
Cao Zhimin at work. (Photo courtesy of the First Affiliated Hospital of the Chinese University of Science and Technology)
January 30
After intense and meticulous pre-job training, I officially started my job today. Sitting on the shuttle bus to the hospital, I was a little bit nervous, but I was no longer afraid.
Before I came to Wuhan, I was not afraid that it was fake, but after I came to Wuhan, I saw that a prosperous city had become so quiet and lonely because of the epidemic, and my unbelieving energy in my heart was inspired-Ren No matter how viral you are, my Chinese children will never flinch.
The first day of class was very hard. Not to mention the heavy workload, the completely impermeable protective clothing and the thick mask made me pant shortly. After one shift, his clothes were soaked, and his face was deeply indented. The moment he took off his mask, it seemed as if the fish out of the water finally returned to the water and quickly took a few deep breaths. I was n’t a nurse in the infection ward before. To be honest, this is the first time I have experienced this level of protection.
Confident Cao Zhimin thumbs up. (Photo courtesy of the First Affiliated Hospital of the Chinese University of Science and Technology)
February 5
It's been a week since I officially started work, and my biggest feeling is three points.
First, psychological stress. We support the intensive care unit of Wuhan Jinyintan Hospital. Most of the patients admitted here are critically ill. Many patients need an invasive ventilator to assist breathing. Even awake patients need to wear high-flow oxygen or non-invasive breathing. machine. When looking at the patient who was nursing the day before, he "leaves (dead)" the next day, and his heartache and a sense of loss suddenly emerged.
Second, physiological stress. During the eight-hour work day, the most painful thing is to urinate. Sometimes I really do n’t dare to speak, and I am afraid that I wo n’t be able to hold it anymore. Originally I was embarrassed to use diapers. After five days of suffocation, I finally compromised and started using diapers.
Third, confidence in the war epidemic. Looking at patients lying in bed or awake or unconscious, the heart always hurts, and the epidemic disrupted their originally peaceful and happy lives. My personal ability is limited, but I must do my best to grab them back from death, and save them one by one. After all, saving a person is saving a family!
Cao Zhimin at work. (Photo courtesy of the First Affiliated Hospital of the Chinese University of Science and Technology)
February 15
It's a bit depressing and a little uncomfortable today, because a grandma who took care of me for many days passed away.
We rescued her for half an hour, but the ECG was still a straight line. Sweat has soaked through the inner clothing, and the protective mask has long been unclear. When the doctor announced the patient's clinical death, I stupidly forgot what to do next.
This is the first of my patients to die, and there are countless unwillingness in my heart, why didn't I save her back! I wish that the flat ECG line fluctuated suddenly.
After finishing the body care, I arranged the relics for this grandma and found that she still had more than 8,000 yuan in cash. I used a walkie-talkie to communicate with the teachers outside and asked them to contact their family members as soon as possible so that the family members could collect the relics.
After a while, the outside teacher heard a slightly hoarse voice from the intercom: "Her family can't come, their entire family is isolated." I couldn't help crying when I heard this sentence. This is the first time I came to Wuhan to cry.
The old man died, no family gave her the last trip, and no one could even pick up the relics. I am an outsider so uncomfortable, not to mention her family. I bowed at the organized old man's body, and gave her the last trip on her behalf.
Ugh! Damn outbreak!
Because of wearing gloves for a long time, Cao Zhimin's fingers began to blister and peel. (Photo courtesy of the First Affiliated Hospital of the Chinese University of Science and Technology)
February 20
Today, because of a cold and diarrhea, I took two days off and stayed in the hotel. In the evening, I learned from my colleague that Dr. Peng Yinhua, who was hospitalized in our ward, died. When I heard the news, I cried for the second time.
Peng Yinhua is a hero because the patient was infected with new coronary pneumonia. He was only 29 years old, and he was about to get married. The invitations were printed. When he went to the hospital for treatment, I believed he could be cured, after all, he was so young. But we didn't wait for the good news of his discharge from the marriage.
Peng Yinhua's life was fixed on this day. I bowed deeply in the hotel in the direction of Jinyintan Hospital. Dr. Peng, go all the way!
Photo of Cao Zhimin and his family. (Photo courtesy of the First Affiliated Hospital of the Chinese University of Science and Technology)
February 23
Today is the most comforting and proud day when I came to Jinyintan Hospital. The first tracheal intubation patient in our ward was successfully extubated and transferred to the general ward.
This is a middle-aged male patient who came from my class. The condition was very bad when he came. First, he was inhaling high flow oxygen. No, it was not a non-invasive ventilator. After a few days of treatment, I was finally transferred back to the general ward in my class this morning.
The spirit of all of us can be watched as the patients we manage get better and return to the general ward! He was walking to the general ward under our escort.
Seeing him stand up again, we all felt that the efforts of more than ten days were not wasted. Before he left, he said to us, "Thank you!" After hearing these four words, I had mixed feelings, and my eyes were wet again. We finally learned one from our death with what we learned.
There are other patients in the ward that are gradually improving. I firmly believe that through our joint efforts with patients, they can all stand up and turn out!
Photo of Cao Zhimin and his son. (Photo courtesy of the First Affiliated Hospital of the Chinese University of Science and Technology)
February 25
It's been one month since I came to Wuhan. After continuous fighting, more and more patients were transferred out of the ward, which made me very happy. At the same time, this month is really tiring. At the busiest time, everyone needs to care for 6 to 8 patients with severe illness at the same time. Sometimes, the care and treatment of a patient with severe illness will be busy for several hours.
When we first arrived, there were so many patients and few supplies, so much hassle and unknown. Fortunately, everything is developing for the better. We have passed the most "dark" moments in the early stage, and the light is about to fall.
This epidemic shattered many families, separated lovers from yin and yang, and caused parents to lose their children and children to lose their parents. However, the Chinese nation is the strongest nation in the world. Our ancestors have faced many ethnic crises, but they carried the burden of national development with a steel-like backbone. I believe that this time we can also overcome the epidemic and achieve the ultimate victory!
After a month of hard work
Cao Zhimin and his comrades welcome a precious week of in-place rest time
Waiting for them is a new round of fighting!
Reporter: Zhang Qiang, Fang Ping