"I Will Never Forgive You" Miho's Mother Statement Full Text Feb 17 16:04
"Miho was born on a sunny winter day."
"It smiled like a sunflower."
In a case where 19 residents were killed at a facility for the intellectually disabled in Sagamihara City, a defendant charged with murder was opened and a prosecutor sentenced the defendant to death if he had responsibility. I was sentenced.
Prior to the prosecution's death sentence, the mother of Miho-san, who was sacrificed at the age of 19, repeatedly shook her voice and sometimes talked about her feelings.
As the victims were heard anonymously, the mother announced the following name in court, stating that "the daughter is neither the instep nor the initiative." The mother, while confused by the defendant's constant discriminatory claims, attended the hearing, and spent many hours spelling and practicing to speak in court.
(Hereinafter the full statement)
Miho was the whole life
I am Miho's mother. Miho was born on a sunny winter day in December. She was a girl who had been waiting a long time with her older brother.
I was very sensitive to sound when I was young. Loud noise, first place, lots of people were not good. She was a crying child just being greeted by people.
After being diagnosed with autism at the age of three and a half years, I studied anyway. I read books and attended lectures, trying to understand Miho even a little.
I have spoken at school and in the community to share the feelings of other parents with disabilities and their parents. I was afraid of being engulfed or angry, so I wanted to increase the number of people who understood me.
Miho was all my life.
We had many good teachers, friends, supporters, guide helpers and volunteers. Everyone was kind and friendly, so I grew up very friendly and friendly.
I liked music very much and listened to various songs regardless of the genre, such as the theme song of "Ikimonogakari" drama, nursery rhymes, classical music, and animation, and danced in a lazy way.
I was in a good mood when riding a vehicle and drove well and took a train or bus. When I was little, I loved swings. Family and guide helpers and volunteers went to various places that I really loved, such as pools, roller coasters, planetariums, aquariums, parades, ramen museums, parks, etc.
A smile like a sunflower, my daughter and teacher
As she grew up, Miho settled down. On the other hand, from the age of nine, there was a major seizure, from about the fifth grade of elementary school to about once a month when there was much more than once a week.
I lived in a children's dormitory since the second year of junior high school due to family circumstances. I was looking forward to meeting every month. I was able to work hard for my daughter. When I was many, I tended to do four jobs.
My daughter told me about disability, autism, and epilepsy. My daughter and teacher. You can now interact with people with a gentle feeling. The importance of waiting and compassion for people have come to be felt. Finding good places (advantages) for people has become a good thing. I am good at praising people.
Although he was friendly and had no words, he came to the side of the person and greeted him, treating him like an acquaintance for a long time. The smile was very nice and healed me around. He smiled like a sunflower. Miho lived hard every day.
(In court, the defendant) said, "I can't help thinking about my mother." I do not change my mind and I do not feel apologized for 1 mm. Wouldn't it be nice to kill it in a painless way? Not a joke. Please do not playfully. I can't meet Miho anymore.
"Miho-chan, Miho-chan" is a cold that will never be forgotten
(Accident) At around 7:30 on the day, I was informed that "Miho was damaged" and arrived at Yamayuri Garden between 9:00 and 10:00.
From the moment I saw x in the list, I couldn't understand what was going on and my head was pure white. I wondered if it was a dream many times and pinched my cheeks, but I had no idea if it was a dream or reality, who I was, or why I was here.
After a long time, I met Miho. Only the face was shown. She was on a stretcher and didn't answer even if she called me `` Miho-chan, Miho-chan '' many times. At that time, it was so cold, cold, it was so cold that I had never had it, and I could never forget it. I think we met in a few minutes.
I was giving out prints, but I was wondering what I had and what everyone was saying. I had a severe headache and said, "Please tell me if you are sick because the doctor at the clinic is in the garden." Please come if you can come to the clinic. "I got on a police car and received an infusion.
I remember talking about the police, the garden, and the bereaved that they were very nervous about giving or not giving their names. I couldn't say a word without a word.
The funeral was a music funeral at a local funeral hall. There seemed to be many media, but the lawyers and police coming from the bar association did not cooperate.
We played music such as Miho's favorite nursery rhymes and “Ikimonogakari”, and the attendees saw the daughter's face. We had you see Miho's album and pictures in the frame. I put off my kimono and sent it off. A total of about 200 people saw it off.
We lost people who were more important than our lives and we were killed
After the incident, the house was messed up.
My grandmother, who was sociable and actively participated in the activities of the Geriatrics and Neighborhood Associations, stayed home and was unable to go outside. I liked talking to people but no longer talk to anyone. I liked cooking and grooming the garden, but no longer. The smile disappeared and the expression disappeared.
My older brother became ill and was on vacation, but was hospitalized and quit his job.
I couldn't understand the taste even after eating and lost 9 kg. I went to psychosomatic medicine and started taking medicine. When I slept, I hit my bones when I slept, so I couldn't sleep. I was afraid to go out alone and could not go out. When I worked out and went out, my heart palpitations were so great that my whole body often shook and shook. Even now, this seizure can cause tremors.
I thought my life was over. I lost someone more important than my life.
The shock of Miho's disappearance has stopped our family from doing anything they had to do before. Everyone around us who loved our family, Miho, was killed by you. All the future was taken away. Please return Miho.
Wish you a punishment
Tell others that there is no life that others can take without permission.
Did you live without knowing that? Did your parents tell you? Did anyone around you tell me? What a poor person! What an unfortunate environment! Really poor person.
I had a daughter and was very happy. I was never unhappy. Don't say "make misfortune" without permission. My daughter just happened to be disabled. Nothing is wrong.
In your words, you are the person who creates misfortune and the non-productive living worthless person. You are wasting your taxes. You are a person you don't need. When you are gone, let the tax you are spending on those who are really in need.
I do not know why you are alive now. I don't have a daughter, but I don't know why such a terrible person is alive. Why are you eating three meals a day? If you feel sick, you can receive treatment. My daughter can't do anything without being in this world.
You hate, hate, dying. I want to split it into eight. I think it's light even in extreme sentences. No matter what penalty is given to you, I will never forgive you. I will not forgive.
Please return my most important and important daughter, Miho. Miho is not in this world and cannot do anything she likes. We cannot meet our family. Lost time can never be regained.
But you are living like this. It is sly. It's strange I killed 19 people. Miho ended his 19-year short life unilaterally deprived of the future.
So you don't need the future. I wish you a punishment. End your life without going outside.
February 17, 2020 Miho's mother