Elena Benavente

Updated Tuesday, April 2, 2024-21:31

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Probably, between 2005 and 2009,

Holly Madison (43) was one of the

most famous

women

in the United States. According to various interviews, in 2000 the model was mired in

financial debt

and she feared that she would soon have to

live on the street.

But she met

Hugh Hefner at a party

and her life changed. In this way, the mannequin began to frequent the owner of

Playboy

and in August 2001

she moved into her mansion.

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Over the months, Madison gained prominence in Hefner's life and in February 2002 she became

his number 1 girlfriend.

That is, the one who had

the most rights

and, of course, the most

obligations

. One of them? Leading one of

Playboy

's television projects

:

The Girls Next Door

, the reality show on the E! which showed the

daily lives of the three women

the mogul was dating at the time:

Madison, Bridget Marquardt and Kendra Wilkinson.

The series ran

for five years

and Madison, Bridget and Kendra became true

celebrities

. However, part of the public always criticized

Holly's

personality

. She was said to be

cold, calculating

and, at times, she seemed disconnected from reality. She never talked about her personality. Until December 2023 she revealed in a podcast that she has been

diagnosed with autism.

"I'm

on the autism spectrum.

But my doctor told me I'm 'high functioning,' which means

I can get on with my life.

I'm just a little quieter. I didn't know how to make

eye contact

before , and people "I took it as something offensive. They told me 'fuck you, you're not interested in me'. And it wasn't like that... It's just that

I'm not on the same social 'wave'

as other people. But it's nothing personal." , he pointed.

Over the past few months, Madison has tried to speak up and explain

what it's like to live

with a diagnosis like hers. But, this weekend, the star went further and opened her heart to reveal what her personal relationships are like. "I'm glad I can be

aware of my situation

, because now I can recognize how I react, why I act the way I do, and how I relate to people.

I've been able to improve my social skills,"

she told People.

"Today I am lucky to be

dating someone who has always understood me

and accepted me as I am. In fact, my diagnosis was not shocking to him. I think I have been very lucky, because lately I have not had many problems feeling connections intimate," he said. However, in the past Holly did have difficulties forming

romantic ties.

Although part of these problems had their origin in the Playboy mansion, where

he suffered numerous abuses.

"The first time I was with Hef

there was no romance or seduction.

It was all dark, there was a giant screen with

a porn movie

and everything was mechanical and robotic.

It was disgusting for me,

because he didn't want to use protection... And the impact "It was very strong," he revealed in the documentary

Secrets of Playboy

, in 2023, which tells how Hefner led a kind of

sect

, in which he kept the

playmates

subjugated .

What's more, Holly has claimed on numerous occasions that the businessman

controlled her finances,

prevented her from seeking employment, subjected her to

impossible schedules

and even denied her the psychological therapy she needed. "There were a lot of girls in the mansion and we had problems. Imagine having

sex with someone in a room full

of women who hate you and who speak badly about you... And that made me feel very low energy," he commented last year. .

"I started to think that I didn't have many options and, sometimes, after having those sessions, I would go to the bathtub and

think 'I just want to drown'.

I felt like I was in a cycle of misery," he confessed. Still, Madison managed to move forward and in 2009 she decided

to end any ties

that tied her to Hefner. For a time, Madison was

single

. However, in 2012 she found love in the arms of a

producer named Pasquale Rotella,

whom she married in 2013.

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Rotella and Madison

ended their relationship in 2018.

Despite this, the former bunny does not regret anything. "I know many people who have gone through a situation similar to mine, in the same mansion. Many of them had to go through a period in which

they even decided to be celibate.

But that was not my case. I went back to dating. ...And I'm glad I did it! Because with Pasquale

I had two incredible children," she told

People

a couple of years ago

.

And what about your work life? Holly is currently the

host of the podcast

Girls Next Level

, which she created with Hefner's ex-girlfriend Bridget Marquardt. They both speak candidly about

their experience at the mansion, the crazy parties

, and the strange relationship they had with the late millionaire. On the other hand, Madison presents and produces a show called

Lethally Blonde,

which premiered on March 23 on Investigation Discovery.