No one knows exactly how many in Sweden live under oppression of honor, but researchers believe that it may be over 200,000 young people.

Ayla, whose real name is something else, was only a few months old when her family came to Sweden from the Middle East.

She talks about how a strong culture of honor developed within the family.

Growing up was marked by violence, threats and fear.

Ayla says that as a thirteen-year-old she was taken into care according to the Act with special provisions on care of young people, LVU, for the first time.

She says that she was placed in a sheltered accommodation with her older sister.

- The school nurse had seen that I had a lot of bruises.

I told the school counselor that I was beaten at home, that I was not allowed to have friends and that I always had exactly ten minutes to get home from school, says Ayla.

"I was so scared"

After three weeks, the sisters escaped from the emergency room.

The care had come as a shock.

They longed for home and had been promised that everything would be better this time.

- Mom and dad managed to make us feel guilty, I was so scared of having soiled their names.

But it did not get better.

Ayla tells about when her grandmother and grandfather had come to Sweden to visit.

The whole family sat together in the living room and talked and laughed together.

Suddenly, the father kicked his daughter so hard on the head that she suffered a concussion.

According to Ayla, his explanation was that she "laughed like a whore".

- I do not know how he wanted me to laugh.

I will never forget that, she says.

"My family had scared me"

According to Ayla, she was taken into care a total of eight times before she broke free from honor killings for the last time.

The last drop she says was when her father chased her out of the house with a knife.

- I thought: "Either I will die, or someone else will do it".

Today Ayla is 34 years old and has formed her own family.

She works, is married and has two children.

- My family had scared me and said that I would not be anything without family and relatives.

But they were so wrong.

I feel much better today than I did then, she says.

Ayla is actually called something else.