The hardest past to quit
Ye Xiong said, if there is hell, taking drugs is falling from the world to hell, and rehabilitating drugs is to crawl back to the world from hell.
Ye Xiong is 63 years old. When she left the Shanghai Women's Compulsory Isolation and Detoxification Center in March 2002, she felt anxiety.
She started taking heroin in 1991 and was arrested 10 years later.
When she left the drug rehabilitation center, her parents had already passed away. Considering that her younger brother had a family business, she didn't want to bother anymore, and she had already divorced.
That night, she slept in the public bath.
She described: "At that time, I didn't know where a person would wander."
Later, when she returned to give a speech on drug rehabilitation, she often asked the audience half-jokingly and half-seriously: "If you leave the office, there is no door in the whole city for you, no bed to stay in, no money in your pocket, There is no deposit in it. Can you raise your hand? I can take care of your food and accommodation for three days. Of course, I don’t want a five-star (hotel)."
Few people raised their hands.
Indeed, not many people like her occupy so many difficulties.
But even if there are parents who are distressed, a husband is caring for, or a wife is waiting, after leaving the drug rehabilitation center, the road for drug rehabilitation personnel to integrate into society is still rough.
Start over
The day before leaving the Shanghai Qingdong compulsory drug rehabilitation center, Fu Zhong was called by a familiar police officer to talk.
"Are you all ready? Are you still sucking when you go back?"
Fu Zhong lowered his head and said after a short silence: "I really can't be sure, I feel it is difficult for me to do it."
The police officer did not expect this answer. He had given Fu Zhong a lot of encouragement, and he was confident in his recovery.
"This is the truth. I know you will be disappointed by saying this, but I don't know what I will encounter when I go out."
The next day, Fu Zhong left a note to the police officer: "I'm leaving, thank you! If I come back here next time, please understand me."
According to the Anti-drug Law of the People's Republic of China, after diagnosis and evaluation, except for those who are in good detox conditions or those who need to extend the period of detoxification, general drug addicts are subject to compulsory isolation for two years.
Fu Zhong entered the Shanghai Qingdong Compulsory Isolation Drug Rehabilitation Center in 2014. He was 46 years old and had been taking drugs for 17 years.
After two years of drug rehabilitation, in November 2016, he finally walked out of that high wall.
On April 27, 2017, Hu Jia (pseudonym), who had a history of taking methamphetamine for two years, also left the compulsory isolation rehabilitation center. After leaving the home, she called a taxi, and her parents and daughter were waiting for her to return home.
On that day, she felt that the two years of losing her freedom in the drug rehabilitation center was "worth it" because she finally never encountered methamphetamine again.
On the second day after leaving the drug rehabilitation center, Ye Xiong found a friend who opened a chess and card room, and started doing chores in the store, helping with sweeping the floor, pouring tea, and buying cigarettes.
Later, the Shanghai Women's Compulsory Isolation and Rehabilitation Center contacted Ye Xiong and asked her to go back to participate in the activity.
She was very happy that she was able to return to the drug rehabilitation center again as a helper and inspire others by sharing her stories.
Even though she was too poor to have money to eat at the time, Ye Xiong paid the fare by herself and returned to the place where she received drug rehabilitation services.
In 2003, Shanghai Ziqiang Social Service Corporation was established, and the Office of the Shanghai Narcotics Control Commission invited Ye Xiong to be the first social worker training session.
At that time, Ye Xiong was not good at computer typing. He wrote all the lectures by hand, and her daughter helped turn them into electronic documents.
After printing out the paper version, Ye Xiong got the Office of Narcotics Control. Others looked at the pile of lecture notes and joked: "How are Ye Xiong preparing? Is the book published?"
Ye Xiong was also a little proud of this: "As a result, I went up for a few hours without reading a word!"
After that, Ye Xiong gradually devoted himself to drug control.
In 2003, she opened the hotline for drug rehabilitation; in 2004, she formally joined the Self-improvement Social Service Corporation; in 2006, she participated in a training organized by the Shanghai Mental Health Center with social workers; in 2007, she studied psychology.
To this day, Ye Xiong is still engaged in peer education and anti-drug education in the field of drug rehabilitation.
She appeared in different media.
Talking about popularity, Ye Xiong said: "I am a'giant panda', and what I do most is propaganda. This does not mean how good I am. It is just that there are too few people who have successfully rehabilitated drugs, so it seems precious."
She even thinks that sometimes "seeing a large swath of black pressure in the audience" gives birth to a sense of mission, and this feeling promotes her recovery.
Behind the mask
There is a line in the movie "The Disciple": "Is the drug scary or emptiness more scary?"
Ye Xiong's answer to this was "emptiness".
In her view, the biggest difficulty in conquering emptiness is to solve the employment problem.
Guangdong Lianzhong Drug Rehabilitation Social Work Service Center is a public welfare non-profit social organization approved by the Office of the Guangdong Drug Control Commission.
Tao Yuanchun, who has worked here for 5 years, believes that a stable job can not only allow drug addicts to live a regular life and keep them away from the previous "drug circle", but also allow them to have a basic source of life and avoid anxiety. , To reduce the probability of relapse.
Drug addicts who have not been employed in time are usually divided into two categories. One is that they do not have the motivation to find a job, and the other is that they are motivated but cannot find a satisfactory job.
“Some drug addicts don’t need money. It’s not difficult for them to find a job. What’s difficult is to find a high-paying or decent job. There are also some addicts who are older, have low education, and have poor living conditions. Under normal circumstances, they can find a job that not only has low salary and long working hours, but may also be far away from home, so it will be more difficult. Such life pressure will bring some anxiety to him, which is not conducive to drug rehabilitation." Tao Yuan Chun said.
In the company, no one knew Hu Jia's drug history.
She is good at business sales, market development, and speaks by performance.
She admits that sometimes she feels scared.
"I've encountered it before. I have all passed the interview and have started working, but suddenly asked for a certificate of no criminal record. I have difficulty in this area."
According to the Drug Rehabilitation Regulations, for persons who have been released from compulsory isolation and detoxification, the decision-making authority for compulsory isolation and detoxification may order them to accept community rehabilitation for no more than 3 years.
Community rehabilitation will be terminated on the date of expiration, that is, in the legal sense, drug addicts can be considered as "non-relapsed".
During the three-year period for drug rehabilitation in the community, drug rehabilitation personnel should be tested regularly in accordance with the requirements of the public security organs.
Because the three-year community rehabilitation period has not expired, Hu Jia is reluctant to meet with colleagues in order to avoid being checked for ID cards when taking the subway or when ID cards are required to register when opening a hotel room. As a result, the police are in an awkward situation requiring a urine test.
She said: "We all go to work wearing masks, and no one knows our past."
"Whenever you put down your precautions and want to speak freely, you will definitely find your own companion." Hu Jia often participates in anti-drug public welfare activities organized by Ye Xiong, and his companions also organize several gatherings and tours every month.
Here, she is not worried about being investigated, "Everyone is the same anyway."
Speaking of these restrictive regulations, Hu Jia said: "To borrow a sentence from "Infernal Affairs", you will always have to pay back when you come out."
Desire gate
In Ye Xiong's view, the complete process of drug rehabilitation can be divided into several parts: physical detoxification, psychological rehabilitation, social function recovery, life meaning reconstruction, and value realization.
The National Institute on Drug Abuse of the United States defines "addiction" as "a chronic recurrent brain disease."
Detoxification is an addiction treatment.
In the drug rehabilitation center, the two-year time limit allows the drug addicts to basically complete the physical detoxification, but after leaving the center, "heart addiction" is a hurdle that the drug addicts must rely on self-control to overcome.
The "Report on China's Drug Situation in 2018" issued by the National Narcotics Control Office in June 2019 shows that in 2018, the total number of abuses by relapsers was 504,000.
In 2016, Fu Zhong met Ye Xiong on the recommendation of a social worker, and formally joined the Shanghai Anti-drug Volunteers Association a year later as an officer.
"I saw so many people like me for the first time. Drug addicts want to quit drugs, but they don't have a motivation to support themselves, but there are so many companions in Yelaoshr, and they are all affecting me." Join Ye Xiong's team Later, Fu Zhong began to look forward to life again.
But when Fu Zhong felt that he would no longer be shaken by drugs, he went out once in the community and met his former drug friend.
That friend was still taking drugs, and said to Fu Zhong: "You're all right to come to my house and sit down."
Fu Zhong subconsciously replied: "Okay, okay..." After speaking, he felt that his whole body was soaked in cold sweat.
"Although I didn't say it clearly at the time, as soon as I saw his face, I felt that my door of desire was being hit by a force."
On the way out, there were about 10 stops away from the destination, but on the bus, Fu Zhong couldn't sit still after 3 stops and got off the bus.
A fluke flashed in his heart: "I know that friend didn't want to harm me. No one knew about it."
Just when Fu Zhong walked to the bus stop across the road, planning to go back, a bus just drove away.
While waiting for the bus, his heart began to struggle again.
He opened the WeChat group of the companion rehabilitation group and had nothing to talk to, hoping to relieve his inner restlessness in this way.
That day, while chatting in the group, Fu Zhong walked aimlessly, and finally his anxiety gradually eased, thus dispelling the idea of going to a friend's house to "sit".
In the evening, the number of steps jumped out of the phone, and that afternoon he walked more than 20,000 steps.
In retrospect, Fu Zhong said: "God for help! If I happened to catch the bus, if I didn't have this group of companions, even though I would be uneasy in the car, the result could be imagined, but the consequences would be impossible. Imagine."
Yearning for respect
In 2003, in the first speech given by Shanghai Ziqiang Social Service Headquarters, Ye Xiong said the most saying "I hope you don't treat us as monsters, we need trust."
At that time, she still couldn't say the word "respect".
"It's not so bold to ask other cadres and public security officers to respect you."
Recalling his experience during drug use, Ye Xiong described himself at that time as a street mouse who owed society and the public.
On one occasion, she was taken to the police station again, but was released at the end because she was not received by the lock-up center.
Ye Xiong wanted to sign as soon as possible and leave the police station, so he reached for a pen.
Upon seeing this, the young policeman in charge of handling the formalities immediately returned the pen, then slowly took out an envelope and wrapped the pen one after another.
"Think of me as a leper, this feels pretty pretty..." Ye Xiong stopped, and didn't go on.
After leaving the camp, in the second year of community rehabilitation, Ye Xiong was renting a house. One day, six police officers suddenly appeared at the door and asked Ye Xiong to take a urine test.
"It's really uncomfortable, do you need it? I told them that it was because I took the initiative to leave my information, including my phone number and working hours, so that you could find me smoothly. I was only 1.5 meters away. People, do you need 6 of you to take me away? What will the neighbors think when they see it?"
The police asked Ye Xiong why he didn't rent a house near the company. Ye Xiong had no choice but to say, "I think too, but that is the central area. The house price is high and I have no money."
Also in 2014, Ye Xiong bluntly said he was "insulted."
As a director of the Hubei Provincial Drug Rehabilitation and Treatment Research Association, she was invited to Wuhan for a meeting.
On the motor car, an old couple wanted to change seats with her. Ye Xiong didn't think much about changing the tickets with the old man, so he dragged a suitcase with a lot of books and walked from car 7 to car 15.
Before sitting down, he was surrounded by 4 police officers in uniforms: "Get your things and follow us."
Ye Xiong had no self-confidence, and tried to prove his identity by showing the police an invitation letter: "I will definitely cooperate with you to take the urine test, but can you also change your working methods and pay attention to your quality?"
"Will you take drugs if you are well-trained?" a policeman asked her back.
That day, Ye Xiong missed the train schedule, and when she received a urine test, she couldn't help crying.
She had already left the camp for 12 years.
A female policeman asked her: "Can you tell me why you want to change seats?"
Ye Xiong remembered that he was so angry that he wanted to throw things away: "Is there any law that says that people who have taken drugs can't do good deeds?"
As a successful drug rehabilitation worker and an anti-drug worker, considering the current high relapse rate and the consequences of drug use, Ye Xiong believes that it is still necessary to maintain or revise some regulations to impose a certain level of restrictions on drug abusers to use such external supervision. Ways to promote the rehabilitation of drug addicts.
At the same time, some law enforcement officers need to improve their attitude and behavior in law enforcement.
Many times Ye Xiong went to other places to train police and social workers. The police often found Ye Xiong at the end: "I have been a police officer for 30 years, and I will retire soon. I have never seen a successful drug rehabilitation."
Therefore, when Ye Xiong started anti-drug work in his later period, in addition to giving hope to drug addicts, he also encouraged family members, social workers, and the police to build confidence in drug addicts: "I know that doing drug rehabilitation work is really hard, but if you think it is every day In the production of waste products, does this work make sense? If you don’t have hope in your heart, and the other party can feel it too, slowly we will become what you think."
She said in an interview: "They are patients and they need social ropes."
Love and trust
Looking back on the past 30 years, Ye Xiong said: "I am worthy of all the people I know, except for my family."
When going to the middle school to talk about drug control, Fu Zhong would feel in a daze that there is his own son among the middle school students in the audience.
Today, his son is a husband and father.
The father and son had never talked about it. Fu Zhong didn't want to mention it, and he didn't dare to mention it, hoping his son would forget.
On the day the son took his girlfriend home for the first time, he toasted Fu Zhong a glass of wine during dinner: "Hello Dad, there is hope in our family."
After leaving the home, Hu Jia wanted to make up for the debt owed to his parents and daughter within two years, and was eager to prove to his family that his life would be on the right track as soon as possible, hoping to find the "other half."
She met a gentleman through a friend's introduction.
Within half a year, they got married.
Before getting married, Hu Jia told him of his drug history, and his first reaction was shock.
After struggling for a few days, he accepted Hu Jia's past and expressed his belief in her.
Speaking of her husband, Hu Jia's tone became gentle.
She said that her husband understood her very well, “I feel that we need protection in particular. Without anyone caring, it’s easy to go wrong, so I am very supportive and take care of me.”
At the end of the interview and before we each prepared to hang up the phone, Hu Jia hurriedly said: "I want to say something in particular at the end. We are not as downhearted, as wretched, or as fragmented as you think. In fact, most of us are very pretty. Good communication, because we need to talk too much, you know?"
After receiving the interview invitation, Hu Jia told Ye Xiong that he must speak freely, because there are many things to express.
But on the day of the interview, she felt that she suddenly had nothing to say.
When asked again if he still had something to say, Hu Jia became a little shy, and said with a silly smile: "Anyway, don't discriminate against us, don't distort us, give us more understanding, tolerance and trust. These are very important. Right?"
On the second day of the trip, Fu Zhong made an appointment with his eldest sister.
After Fu Zhong took drugs, they broke off contact.
That was their first meeting seven years later.
The eldest sister told Fu Zhong that his father had passed away last year.
As for why he didn’t notify him to attend the memorial service, the eldest sister said: “Don’t blame me for being ruthless. I don’t want my parents’ comrades-in-arms and classmates who grew up with you to see you come back from the drug rehabilitation center in handcuffs, let alone. Let the honor of his father's life be tarnished." The words were very heavy, but Fu Zhong was speechless and could only bear the bad news silently.
Since joining the peer education team, Fu Zhong has participated in various activities.
In a drama that focused on the lives of drug addicts in 2017, Fu Zhong worked as a volunteer in the props team and was invited by the director to tell the actors about his drug abuse experience and recovery process, so that the actors could be more Good grasp of the inner world of the character.
Fu Zhong also created sketches and poems showing the lives of anti-drug volunteers.
He kept sending photos of various activities to his elder sister, but he never got a reply.
At the end of an event, Fu Zhong opened WeChat and saw a message from his elder sister: "I am very happy to see your change! I hope you will stick to it."
These words made Fu Zhong burst into tears.
Yuan Muxian Source: China Youth Daily