Brigitte froze her eggs - not a single one worked

- When I was 25? she rhetorically asks my question if she didn't think about having children when she was 25.

"Oh no," she says, laughing out loud, I didn't think of that at all.

Now Brigitte is 45, lives in a house in Los Angeles and is pregnant for the first time with a baby who is very much in need. But the road here has been long and lined with many disappointments and decisions.

- I used to be a very planned person, says Brigitte.

- Still, I thought that with kids, it will work out. I will meet someone to have children with and it will just happen.

She is a trained marketer and has had a long and successful career. She is blond and good looking, funny and easy going and laughs easily and often.

- But, she says, I never met that man to have children with. The thing about fertility, you can't plan.

Brigitte married, but divorced a few years later. She no longer had any partner at the same time as her career took off. She worked hard, both nights and weekends, made a lot of money, but never had to go out on any dates.

Suddenly, at the age of 38, she realized that she couldn't wait for everything to go right. So, in anticipation of "Mr Right", she decided to freeze her eggs.

- After I froze my eggs, I felt proud of myself, she says and laughs.

- I was happier, felt I could keep waiting, now I had my eggs there.

At the same time, the age is of great importance for the quality of the eggs, the age is essential.

- The quality of the eggs deteriorates over the years. For example, if you are 38 years old when you freeze your eggs, chances are very low. On the other hand, if you freeze the eggs at age 20, chances are pretty good, explains Outi Hovatta, a professor of obstetrics and gynecology at the Karolinska Institute.

According to her, on average, at least six frozen eggs are required to get pregnant.

A little more than a year and a half ago, Brigitte Adams realized that "Mr Right" would not show up at all within a reasonable time, by which time she had passed the 42-year limit.

But she had her own eggs frozen and now it was time to pick them out.

- It was important to have a biological child of her own, she explains.

- I wanted the special bond with the child. Have the same eyes, the same family ties.

But it wouldn't be so either. Because when Brigitte decided to use her eleven eggs, only one finally managed.

It was implanted in her uterus and a first test showed that she was pregnant.

"A nurse called me," Brigitte says with another laugh, and said; Congratulations, you are pregnant! But she did not say that this was just test one, that one had to do another test. So for 48 hours I sat looking for strollers and fantasized about names for the baby. I was so happy.

But test two turned out to be negative. The embryo did not grow.

- I was in a black room for three days, I did not get out of bed.

She laughs, but the grief is felt in every syllable.

- I thought I had failed, as a woman, in life.

Now Brigitte is 45 years old, and pregnant. None of what she planned fell into place. She is clearly over 42 years old, and she has a donated egg that has been fertilized with donated sperm.

- The freezing was a kind of plan B. When the thing about "just raising children" did not happen.

But, she says, you also need a plan C. This is it.

- And it was, of course, to become a mother that I wanted, and this is how I will become a mother.

The baby, a little girl, is scheduled for May. I ask Brigitte for the girl's name:

- It's a secret.

Say "The Correspondents" about the fertility industry in SVT Play.