"Don't forget that bone-breaking efforts will always fail. Those who don't value themselves will never be given great gifts. Please value yourself."
These words were said by Lee Ji-young (39), a 'one-time instructor' in the field of social research, reminiscing on the spring of four years ago, when he faced a turning point in his death.
Renowned as the most famous instructor in Daechi-dong and earning tens of billions of salaries, she said that she had lived a fierce and tough life for her success.
But somehow, she confessed the reason, saying that the past hours she had worked hard for were 'foolish moments'.
'Hundreds of billions of dollars' 1st lecturer, appendix exploded and neglected to work... "Ignorant poison" yelling doctor
On the 5th, Mr. Lee started the lecture by introducing himself as 'the most foolish and foolish person', who in the past emphasized that students should always be toxic on the YouTube channel 'Sebashi Lecture' on the 5th.
Mr. Lee said, "I've been telling high school seniors that they won't die even if they sleep for just three hours a day. I thought 'toxicity' was the most important driving force for success," he said, regretting the words he used to say to his students.
He continued, "How much would you give to sit in front of a computer to keep the deadline even if your appendix bursts and your body is filled with pus, and your fever is over 38 degrees? asked.
The story goes back to 2017, when he confesses that he suffered fatal health injuries from a recurring, murderous schedule.
Five years ago, Mr. Lee was taken to the hospital while engrossed in his work, neglecting his appendix rupture in July, during the peak season of sales every year, during a very busy time before a special lecture on summer vacation.
Lee revealed the endoscopic photo at the time, saying, "The appendix ruptured due to acute appendicitis, which progressed to peritonitis.
He continued, "The doctor who performed the operation said, 'I've never seen anyone come to the hospital in this condition in my life,' and asked, 'What the heck is an important thing that makes you treat yourself so harshly?'"
However, Mr. Lee said the doctor's question was shocking.
Everyone thought that they lived with this kind of pain, and they took it for granted that in order to succeed, it was natural to ignore the danger signals sent by the body.
Mr. Lee, who was confused by the doctor saying 'stupid and ignorant poison', said that he felt something was wrong.
Nevertheless, Mr. Lee was restless as he remembered the manuscript that he could not pass by the deadline at the time, and even though he had to be hospitalized for more than a week, he was discharged from the hospital with a body that did not recover, and conducted a special lecture on summer vacation.
Recalling the memories of that time, Mr. Lee continued the story of the turning point of death that followed, saying that it was a foolish and pathetic choice.
The year of '31.6 billion sales', the 'fear of death' approached her
Sales of personal teaching materials 5.9 billion won, lecture sales 21.8 billion won, field lectures 3.9 billion won.
316 billion in total.
In the lecture, Mr. Lee disclosed his annual sales in 2017, when he was ill.
Lee said, "Even if you give me a million dollars now, even if I become rich like Elon Musk, I will never make the worst choice. I thought it would,” he said.
He also shared the painful time that reached the threshold of death.
Referring to the unprecedented event that the CSAT was delayed due to the Pohang earthquake in November 2017, Mr. Lee said, “In-gang instructor is the only one in the year to take a sweet vacation for a week right after the CSAT. I couldn't take a break due to the distribution of free materials for students, etc.," he said.
In addition, he said, "As a result of excessive discharge and fatigue accumulated in an unrecovered state, I met a point of death in April 2018.
At that time, Mr. Lee did not have the strength to lift a spoon or even chew food.
Mr. Lee said at the time of his physical condition, "The fear of death rose to the tip of his chin, and all the figures on his body were facing death."
He said, “I was in a situation where I had to pay a penalty up to three times the sum of the down payment, the value of stocks paid, sales, publicity costs, image loss costs, and expected future profits due to the suspension of lectures under the contract,” he said. He said, "I've been punished for so long, but I've been trying to cut my bones for success, but I thought, "Why did this happen?"
It was then that Mr. Lee realized he had made the worst mistake.
"Coming to think of it, I urged the exhausted high school student to study with the determination to die, saying that he would not die even if he slept for three hours a day. A great regret came over me."
Then he said, "I will tell you to take a little more rest and study, and not to abuse yourself because you study to do something good for yourself. It was only then that I realized how late I had made such a big mistake."
After that, Mr. Lee headed to Jeju Island instead of returning to the pulpit.
Her rest of a month or two, her deep sleep, her deep reflection on her life, and her healthy leisure brought her a miraculous recovery.
She said, "If you had given me a break like this, even for just one or two months, I would not have reached the point of death, but I felt foolish."
"Efforts to cut bones will always fail. Please value yourself."
After three months, Lee recovered his health and returned to his full-time job as a lecturer in July of the same year.
Mr. Lee reduced the on-site lectures to 3 days a week instead of taking classes all 7 days of 'Mon, Tue, Wed, Thu, Geum and Geum' without holidays, and changed the lunch box and egg filled meal at convenience stores for 30 minutes to a healthy Korean table setting.
He also said that in April and June, when students focus on their own body, there is a period of rest, and at that time, they go out to sea on a yacht and enjoy sea fishing to clear their minds.
This is what she, who has lived fiercely and fiercely for her success, overcame her death and realized that.
At the end of her lecture, Lee Ji-young asked everyone to do this.
"I want you to never forget that hard work will always fail. A great gift is never given to a person who does not value himself. Any achievement given to that person is the next level of self-esteem. It's just an excuse for overuse. Take care of yourself. Do something good for yourself. I hope you don't forget that only those who value you deserve a truly precious gift."