The Super League somehow became for me the nail in the coffin of a football world that has long felt bad.
A world that all too often no longer touches me in the same way.
The absence of the audience contributes to that experience, but even before the pandemic, I have had a feeling that too many matches in international top football are irrelevant.
Real Madrid president and Super League chairman Florentino Perez and the other elves' assessment from the boardrooms was to make football even more insignificant and plastic.
All to save your own skin.
A few rich loot for themselves, sit securely on the throne and then decide who is then in the heat or out in the cold.
Clubs that have run on the cost side are now sitting in the shit due to reduced revenues.
Instead of desperately trying to rob themselves, they should at an earlier stage have fixed their mouths on the food bag.
Pérez was adamant that football must be changed and adapted to today's youth.
That young people do not have the strength to sit a whole match and that many matches are too bad.
That children and young people want something different.
He wants to save football.
He says that football will otherwise be dead in 2024.
My most anecdotal survey here at home with two children obsessed with youtube and TikTok is just the opposite.
They do not look at something that does not feel genuine.
They follow influencers where it is too arranged and plastic.
Dr does not look at good-looking productions with several cameras where the purpose is to sell more of something.
They want the feeling that it is for real, certainly in a pretend world but still the feeling that it means something.
The transactions are more like a movie
The Allsvenskan touches because it is for real.
If I look at the international football world today, it is often anything but real.
Big clubs want more, Uefa and Fifa want more, agents want more, parents want a piece of the pie and players have billions in revenue.
The football world's transactions are more like scenes from the movie "Stupid Stupid" and all the "I owe you notes" Jim Carrey writes while burning someone else's money.
We watch football where we know in advance that the best teams will win 9 matches out of 10.
We see matches where the players go at half speed in one half to then increase the pace in the second half and win as ordered as a plan for the next match in three days.
I follow Barcelona because I love Messi.
Hand on heart.
I doubt I have seen Messi go full steam ahead in any match over 90 minutes in recent years.
For me as a player, parent, supporter, expert and trained coach, football is passion, tactics, emotion, wins, losses, supporters, frustration, relegation, qualifiers, promotion, joy, ugly goals, fantastic technical numbers but also a brutal slippery tackle on the sidelines. .
It's blood, sweat and tears.
Opportunity for the small team - with a fantastic team - to beat the big team with the stars.
I love the World Cup and the European Championships because it actually seems to mean everything to the teams and the players.
I have commented closely and seen big players get so nervous, due to an entire country's expectations, that they are unable to kick to three.
Here is my "To do" list
To see Russia succeed on the spot in the home World Cup against Spain.
Be in Brazil when they were completely crushed by Germany.
All my memories that I can rattle out of my football life are events that have meant something, not only to me but also to others.
We gather around the huge campfire.
Every now and then it is often joy or sorrow, but in the end it is most memories that win.
I can state that after what has happened in the last few days, nothing has changed, everything is status quo. Everything except possibly that more boardrooms have realized that football is nothing without the genuine support and that they should never forget the core business, to compete in football.
In order for me to feel that football is taking steps in the right direction and that my cup is starting to be emptied, I have made a list of ToDo's for Fifa, Uefa and its members to start working on.
• Convince the football world that corruption is gone from the corridors of power.
• Take control of the player market and rogue agents with the result that the money seeps out of football into the pockets of various stakeholders.
• Sustainable championships from a sporting, economic, social and environmental perspective.
• Take action against racism directed at players in their sanctioned competitions
• Increase the pace of work on the right conditions for women's football to develop
Develop the current financial fair play for sound business, transparency and sensible salary levels
• Continued financial development takes place with players, supporters and sporting development in focus
• WHERE that works in a way that does not remove emotions from the game
After all, it is their competitions and thus they are ultimately responsible.