From radiant joy to black eyes.
Charlotte Kalla has offered emotions regardless of results, and behind that passion there has been an inner critical voice, which was especially noticeable early in her career.
In a longer interview with SVT's Jacob Hård, who has commented on most of Charlotte Kalla's race, she talks about what it has been like to tackle adversity and the journey that has taken her to the security she feels today.
"A balancing act"
- I remember what it was like when I joined the national team as a junior and I could have those black eyes and feel really depressed when an interval workout went badly, even though I knew that these have a much more stable training background than me and us is in August in Bruksvallarna, she says and continues:
- It has been very useful to be able to handle this critical voice, even though I have also known that it is something that makes me move forward.
But it's like a balancing act, how much you should allow yourself to be in it.
According to Kalla, a lot has happened compared to how it was earlier in his career and that in recent years, when it has been a little heavier, has contributed to it.
"More in life than skiing"
- Even though I may be disappointed today, and ponder and doubt, I still have a completely different security to stand on.
Perhaps especially in recent years, I have really been tried and challenged to be able to handle it even better.
You had a feeling, before above all, that you have measured as it has gone very much?
- Yes, but it has been a lot of shame, and it's not fair.
I have tried to keep my distance, that I am not my results, but it is not so easy to redo something that has been around for so long.
I also do not know where that shame came from.
But it is something I feel happy about, that those periods are fewer and shorter today.
There is much more to life than skiing.
Watch the meeting between Jacob Hård and Charlotte Kalla on SVT Play from 18.00.