The redeeming call has not yet come.
Saeid Fazloula had hoped so much that this rollercoaster of emotions would finally be a thing of the past - with all the ups and downs that feel like a roller coaster ride that he can only endure passed out.
That he will finally be on the list of candidates for the international refugee team for the Tokyo Olympic Games as a canoeist before the turn of the year.
Actually, this should now only be a formality, "but I've learned that nothing is safe," says the native Iranian.
Too much has happened.
“I am sad and disappointed, I hardly trust anyone anymore,” he says, then encouraging himself: “But I try to look ahead.
I feel good and I am happy - sometimes. ”A man torn between hope and distrust, between gratitude and sadness.