Esty Quesada: "I am a content creator and I touch my balls, it's nice"

The youtuber played Eva Carrasco in the series 'Vota Juan'.

Since her channel 'Soy una pringada' she has become a professional 'hater', who spits hate in abundance among her subscribers.

Tell me what your work consists of so that my neighbor understands it. I make content on the Internet with a point of dissent to annoy.

I also write and act. Dissidence in these times of political correctness is complicated.

Very complicated, but you have to do things to provoke the system.

Is the pringada born or is she made? She is always born.

Losers are born and stay that way until they die.

Can't you make the leap to winner? I'm not interested.

Being a winner is selling yourself to the public and the media and I don't like it.

I am me, but always being a loser.

How did you become 'Soy una pringada'? It's what I've always told.

I wanted to kill myself and I thought, "What can I do to get the suicidal idea out of my head for 20 minutes a day?"

I consumed a lot of YouTube and started recording videos until now.

I didn't mean anything.

What would you say to all those young people who don't fit in and those they call losers? Don't try to fit in because it's not going to happen.

What one day will want to make them die, the next is what will make them succeed.

Is Paula Echevarría a loser? I'm not interested in that person.

Do you hate positive people and that wave that you have to be happy at all costs? That is something false and counterproductive for people.

It gives you a scale and an expectation that is not realistic.

This is also done by the fucking system to keep us happy, productive and consuming things.

Sadness is rebellion.

But perhaps now there is more conformism than rebellion among young people, right? There is a lot of rebellion among young people and a very strong countercultural world.

What happens is that certain people insist that we always be in

and not be seen.

There is more than ever a countercultural movement.

Give me an example.

The world of drag queen and electronic music are very countercultural movements, especially in the

.

There are a lot of people doing independent parties and movies and all kinds of art to annoy.

You have to put your grain of sand so that things change.

What do you want to change? Everything.

Really the only future I see is that everything explodes and the world ends, but since this is not going to happen in the next five months, the change is that people question things.

You have to do dissidence every day of your life.

But I see very little protest in the street by young people against job insecurity, for example. That is not our fault.

Aren't we all stunned with the mobile? No, we are stunned with working 16 hours a day and earning 800 euros.

Don't be fooled that we are not on the phone all day.

It is that the system has us pressed and caught by the balls.

What revolution are you going to make when you have a military boot on your neck and you have to be very worried about continuing to breathe?

In the end, it is what the system uses so that we do not revolutionize ourselves.

It puts our rent through the roof so we are worried about not being homeless, working a lot of hours, making ends meet, having enough to eat... When your basic needs are not covered, there is no place for the revolution.

The system is mistreating us so that we don't lift our heads up.

Are you easy to hate? Yes, because I say very strong things that are almost always true and people end up agreeing with me, but I understand that the first contact is difficult.

I love being hated.

That is I am doing something right.

Let's go to your controversial videos.

You said that Vox should be killed and that a sticky bomb should be placed at the wedding of Cristina Pedroche and Dabiz Muñoz.

No comment.

Another of your phrases: "Andalusians are people but you may be a little below the others."

When did I say that? I read it online.

Doesn't it ring a bell? Maybe I've made a joke about the Andalusians, but... Anyway, if I've said it, it's a pretty funny joke.

Yolanda Ramos claimed that Esperanza Aguirre wanted to be your friend on 'Celebrity Bake Off'.

Yes, she was very fond of me. Did you get to meet?

You are totally antagonistic.

There has been no contact since, but he liked me.

What was it like playing Eva Carrasco in 'Vota Juan'?

Did she have a lot of you? She had a lot of me, but she also had to act and get out of myself.

They proposed it to me

They caught me and we've done three seasons.

Very strong!

I thought they were going to kick me out.

Why? Because I always think I'm going to get kicked out of places.

What do you have to have to be a good content creator? Truth, things to tell and grace.

If you don't have any of the three, don't bother.

To get into the bag of millions of people who are not interested and have nothing to tell, better not contribute.

Would you go to live in Andorra? No.

You have to destroy the system from within.

Psychologist Rafael Santandreu told me in an interview that undocumented youtubers educate our children.

And what happens?

But it is that in the 90s Nirvana educated them.

Do you have to have a title to tell your truth and for people to learn from you?

It seems quite classy to me.

Young people have always been educated more by the culture than by what a teacher in a school can say.

You can't seem to question anything they teach you at school.

I had a Philosophy teacher, Adolfo Terceño, who is the one who taught me to question things.

It's those little flashes of lucidity at school that make me happy.

I have learned everything I know from YouTube videos, movies, music, books and other content creators.

I only remember 1.5% of what I was taught at school.

You have been very critical of the 'influencers' because you say they are empty.

It is also part of the world

It's those little flashes of lucidity at school that make me happy.

I have learned everything I know from YouTube videos, movies, music, books and other content creators.

I only remember 1.5% of what I was taught at school.

You have been very critical of the 'influencers' because you say they are empty.

It is also part of the world

It's those little flashes of lucidity at school that make me happy.

I have learned everything I know from YouTube videos, movies, music, books and other content creators.

I only remember 1.5% of what I was taught at school.

You have been very critical of the 'influencers' because you say they are empty.

It is also part of the world

that there have to be stupid people so that non-stupid people stand out more.

So thanks.

How is a day in your life? Phew!

A good or bad day?

I have everything. Both. A good day is when I have to do things and go to work sites.

I love going to filming and I feel fulfilled as a person.

I don't really like getting up early, but if I have to, I do. And the bad thing? Well, when I'm so depressed that I want to shoot myself.

I get up very late, I look at the ceiling a lot and I want to die.

And I'm too focused not to jump out the window.

I prefer the good days.

Luckily! I also tell you that they say a lot about: "I am a content creator and I am working all day and I don't have a minute a day".

Honey, it's a lie and you know it.

I am a content creator, I am doing well and I touch my balls, it is a pleasure.

So don't fool us.

I love that you're honest because when I've interviewed a youtuber or 'influencer' they're always under the impression that they spend the day working.

Is a lie.

I still create less content than others.

But they are not working in the mine.

How many videos do you make a week? A week?

When I get the hell out of it, I record.

Having a continuity is not for me.

I try to record more, but I make a video every two or three weeks.

Podcast I record more and try to stay active when the ghost of depression doesn't haunt me.

What are you addicted to? I really like to see things for the

But they are not working in the mine.

How many videos do you make a week? A week?

When I get the hell out of it, I record.

Having a continuity is not for me.

I try to record more, but I make a video every two or three weeks.

Podcast I record more and try to stay active when the ghost of depression doesn't haunt me.

What are you addicted to? I really like to see things for the

But they are not working in the mine.

How many videos do you make a week? A week?

When I get the hell out of it, I record.

Having a continuity is not for me.

I try to record more, but I make a video every two or three weeks.

Podcast I record more and try to stay active when the ghost of depression doesn't haunt me.

What are you addicted to? I really like to see things for the

Things for the...?

And what is that? The shame of others.

If one thing on YouTube embarrasses me, I'm completely addicted.

I like to write my thoughts once a week.

All the rage I have inside I release it in small doses so as not to shoot myself.

You are full of tattoos.

Any special ones? They're all pretty silly.

Do you remember your life before social networks? Of course I remember.

I wasn't 5 years old.

I started in the networks when I was 22 years old or something like that.

It was a horrible life full of misfortunes.

He wanted to kill me.

I don't remember a day in my life that I didn't have a deep depression.

Now too, but much less.

I had friends and I was living day by day and I thought: "Okay, today I don't kill myself".

But a pretty rough life.

You were born into a broken family.

Very unstructured.

Your mother didn't take care of you.

Nope.

He didn't abandon us physically, but he did abandon us emotionally since we were little.

I hate her.

My father is dead and many dark things.

Let's go very bad.

She should have been dead for years, but I'm not.

You told the other day in a video you made about Manolito Gafotas that you cried as a child and there was no one to dry your tears. What a drama!

That's why now I have my blocks and my limits and I can't cry alone or in front of people.

I think I'm going to piss off people.

As a child no one comforted me.

They are childhood traumas that I am working on.

Did you like Manolito Gafotas? It sounds like a silly movie but she hit me hard and knocked me out alive.

It teaches that, in the end, 90% of my problems have come from being poor as a rat.

If we had had more money and we had reached the end of the month,

90% of my problems would have disappeared and my life would have been much happier.

And now I wouldn't be in so much trauma.

All for the fucking money!

I have read that you were sexually abused by your grandmother.

Is it true? Yes, it is true.

I have read cases of other family members, but a grandmother?

How awful!

She was a child for more than 10 years.

I didn't remember this because she had blocked memories.

When they do that to you as a child, you cannot tell your family because you think they will not believe you and that you will be left without support.

For survival your own brain hides it from you.

And then it comes out.

When you are better those memories come out little by little.

You do not understand anything.

It came out in therapy for me because I had very strange dreams.

I had flashbacks of things and I thought: "But what is this? I'm going crazy.

I lived in a horrible house with a bad memory of every corner of the house and a horrible environment.

When I was 13 years old, my mother stopped living with us.

She didn't buy us food.

My sister had to support me as if she were my mother.

I remember it with a lot of trauma and every time I go back I have to have three sessions with a psychologist to get over having gone.

Who do you live with now? First I went with a roommate.

Then I lived alone, which is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

I also tell you that she has the bad part of her because if you are a depressive person like me, you stay locked up in yourself and you don't let yourself out.

I stare at the ceiling and think I'm going to kill myself.

But there is always something that saves you.

The other day Ibai Llanos made a plea against fatphobia.

Did you suffer bullying at school for this topic? It sucks,

But those comments don't bother me.

When you enter the Internet you have to do it if you know that those comments are not going to affect you, because if you don't you can commit suicide with three comments that they put on you.

They take the fat as they can take the "faggot", "glasses"... Most of the time it is not that they hate fat people, yes, because we are people who annoy the system because we do not enter into the canons.

There are people who insult you, but you make others question certain things.

They crush you with anything about your physique or your personality.

I am going to tell you a series of topics about youtubers so that you dismantle them or not.

You are lazy and have no studies.

It's not that we're lazy.

I, personally, am very lazy and I have a Bachelor's degree in studies.

I didn't want to go to university because I thought I wasn't worth it.

Although then I see every asshole that goes to college and I think: "I could have already gone."

I have achieved what I wanted by other means without going to the University.

Regulated studies do not interest me.

I see them as very false and that they are made by stupid people.

Having studies or not sweats me.

I care about the intelligence of each person, something that is seen above all in the type of humor.

You spend the day making jokes in bad taste.

In that case, I do.

Continually.

It's a non-stop and it's my way of surviving because if I didn't I would start crying.

So you are welcome.

Many youtubers are sexist.

Well, yes, but since there are macho masons or engineers.

But yes, there is a wave of a lot of youtubers against feminism, the

Although then I see every asshole that goes to college and I think: "I could have already gone."

I have achieved what I wanted by other means without going to the University.

Regulated studies do not interest me.

I see them as very false and that they are made by stupid people.

Having studies or not sweats me.

I care about the intelligence of each person, something that is seen above all in the type of humor.

You spend the day making jokes in bad taste.

In that case, I do.

Continually.

It's a non-stop and it's my way of surviving because if I didn't I would start crying.

So you are welcome.

Many youtubers are sexist.

Well, yes, but since there are macho masons or engineers.

But yes, there is a wave of a lot of youtubers against feminism, the

Although then I see every asshole that goes to college and I think: "I could have already gone."

I have achieved what I wanted by other means without going to the University.

Regulated studies do not interest me.

I see them as very false and that they are made by stupid people.

Having studies or not sweats me.

I care about the intelligence of each person, something that is seen above all in the type of humor.

You spend the day making jokes in bad taste.

In that case, I do.

Continually.

It's a non-stop and it's my way of surviving because if I didn't I would start crying.

So you are welcome.

Many youtubers are sexist.

Well, yes, but since there are macho masons or engineers.

But yes, there is a wave of a lot of youtubers against feminism, the

I have achieved what I wanted by other means without going to the University.

Regulated studies do not interest me.

I see them as very false and that they are made by stupid people.

Having studies or not sweats me.

I care about the intelligence of each person, something that is seen above all in the type of humor.

You spend the day making jokes in bad taste.

In that case, I do.

Continually.

It's a non-stop and it's my way of surviving because if I didn't I would start crying.

So you are welcome.

Many youtubers are sexist.

Well, yes, but since there are macho masons or engineers.

But yes, there is a wave of a lot of youtubers against feminism, the

I have achieved what I wanted by other means without going to the University.

Regulated studies do not interest me.

I see them as very false and that they are made by stupid people.

Having studies or not sweats me.

I care about the intelligence of each person, something that is seen above all in the type of humor.

You spend the day making jokes in bad taste.

In that case, I do.

Continually.

It's a non-stop and it's my way of surviving because if I didn't I would start crying.

So you are welcome.

Many youtubers are sexist.

Well, yes, but since there are macho masons or engineers.

But yes, there is a wave of a lot of youtubers against feminism, the

something that is seen above all in the type of humor.

You spend the day making jokes in bad taste.

In that case, I do.

Continually.

It's a non-stop and it's my way of surviving because if I didn't I would start crying.

So you are welcome.

Many youtubers are sexist.

Well, yes, but since there are macho masons or engineers.

But yes, there is a wave of a lot of youtubers against feminism, the

something that is seen above all in the type of humor.

You spend the day making jokes in bad taste.

In that case, I do.

Continually.

It's a non-stop and it's my way of surviving because if I didn't I would start crying.

So you are welcome.

Many youtubers are sexist.

Well, yes, but since there are macho masons or engineers.

But yes, there is a wave of a lot of youtubers against feminism, the

they are called, the people who explain cryptocurrencies.

They are a horrible wave, but as there is in comics and in everything.

Are those of cryptocurrencies sexist?

Some have quite a bit of the alpha male Wolf of Wall Street connotation.

They are quite toxic and stupid.

Do you consider yourself a feminist? Man, of course.

To not consider it would seem horrible to me.

Well, there are many women who deny feminism.

But to what extent do they renege or are they alienated by the system to renege?

Why has your Instagram account been removed? Let's see, it was quite my fault.

I uploaded certain jokes that I understand can be understood as non-jokes that go against the rules.

In my defense I will say that everything was with a thousand layers of irony.

I believe that if it's funny, anything can happen.

What do you discover in the cemeteries? A very cool calm.

It reassures me because there are many souls trapped under the ground.

Above all, it is a place where nobody touches your balls.

At some party drunk I've sneaked into a cemetery at night.

Which stand-up comedian is the least funny to you? Leo Harlem.

He's not fucking funny to me.

He defines you as agender and bisexual.

Can you explain it to me? It means that I don't identify with the gender binary.

I feel like I have no gender.

They treat me like a girl and such but inside I know I'm not.

I don't care how I'm treated.

So, are you in favor of the ending in 'e' for other gender identities? I don't feel comfortable being treated with the e.

I don't feel of any gender and that has brought me a lot of dysphoria.

But it's already under control.

What is happening with mental health in this country? Young people are continually asking for psychologists to be placed in Social Security.

The only thing that they have given us, the people who want to kill us, that we are very many, is a telephone.

Do you think you're going to solve something with a phone?

I read the other day that one in five young people have had thoughts of suicide.

And I say: Could it be that the system is interested in the fact that there are no psychologists in Social Security and that mental health is a luxury?

I ask: Could it be that they want us with our heads down without us doing anything more than working and consuming?

It is not that there are no means.

I believe that the system and the Government do not want to provide free psychologists because going to a psychologist and undergoing therapy means questioning things and that can lead to a revolution.

Do not care.

The only thing that they have given us, the people who want to kill us, that we are very many, is a telephone.

Do you think you're going to solve something with a phone?

I read the other day that one in five young people have had thoughts of suicide.

And I say: Could it be that the system is interested in the fact that there are no psychologists in Social Security and that mental health is a luxury?

I ask: Could it be that they want us with our heads down without us doing anything more than working and consuming?

It is not that there are no means.

I believe that the system and the Government do not want to provide free psychologists because going to a psychologist and undergoing therapy means questioning things and that can lead to a revolution.

Do not care.

The only thing that they have given us, the people who want to kill us, that we are very many, is a telephone.

Do you think you're going to solve something with a phone?

I read the other day that one in five young people have had thoughts of suicide.

And I say: Could it be that the system is interested in the fact that there are no psychologists in Social Security and that mental health is a luxury?

I ask: Could it be that they want us with our heads down without us doing anything more than working and consuming?

It is not that there are no means.

I believe that the system and the Government do not want to provide free psychologists because going to a psychologist and undergoing therapy means questioning things and that can lead to a revolution.

Do not care.

Do you think you're going to solve something with a phone?

I read the other day that one in five young people have had thoughts of suicide.

And I say: Could it be that the system is interested in the fact that there are no psychologists in Social Security and that mental health is a luxury?

I ask: Could it be that they want us with our heads down without us doing anything more than working and consuming?

It is not that there are no means.

I believe that the system and the Government do not want to provide free psychologists because going to a psychologist and undergoing therapy means questioning things and that can lead to a revolution.

Do not care.

Do you think you're going to solve something with a phone?

I read the other day that one in five young people have had thoughts of suicide.

And I say: Could it be that the system is interested in the fact that there are no psychologists in Social Security and that mental health is a luxury?

I ask: Could it be that they want us with our heads down without us doing anything more than working and consuming?

It is not that there are no means.

I believe that the system and the Government do not want to provide free psychologists because going to a psychologist and undergoing therapy means questioning things and that can lead to a revolution.

Do not care.

Could it be that they want us with our heads down without us doing anything more than working and consuming?

It is not that there are no means.

I believe that the system and the Government do not want to provide free psychologists because going to a psychologist and undergoing therapy means questioning things and that can lead to a revolution.

Do not care.

Could it be that they want us with our heads down without us doing anything more than working and consuming?

It is not that there are no means.

I believe that the system and the Government do not want to provide free psychologists because going to a psychologist and undergoing therapy means questioning things and that can lead to a revolution.

Do not care.

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