Kristen Herring will never have a child in Texas again.

She loves Austin.

She loves that everything has come together here.

She loves the heat compared to Chicago's cold winters, she loves that this is where she met her husband Eric, a Texan of four years.

She loves the house they found after many moves and absurdly increasing rents.

She loves the two children she has nannyed to since the older one was a few months old.

But she also says, "I just don't feel safe here in Texas anymore."

Sofia Dreisbach

North American political correspondent based in Washington.

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Kristen Herring Is 19 Weeks Pregnant When Physician's Assistant Is So Suspiciously Silent

Eric and she are at a different gynecologist this time and not at the Christian clinic they used to go to.

Did you notice anything, the woman asks?

Yes, they already know that their feet are misaligned, they have adjusted to that.

But when the assistant goes to get the doctor, the two know that there must be more.

He immediately wants to do an amniotic fluid test because the blood is not pumping properly through the fetus's heart chambers.

But wasn't that what they had advised against in the Christian clinic?

"Oh, honey," the doctor says to Herring.

Four or five days after seeing this doctor for the first time, Kristen Herring knows the whole truth.

She knows that the doctors at the Christian hospital most likely kept her in the dark on purpose.

She knows it's a girl.

And she also knows that it will be seriously ill.

The fetus has heart problems, spina bifida (called an open back), hydrocephalus (excessive fluid in the brain), and Turner syndrome.

Herring and her husband decide to have an abortion so their daughter won't suffer.

Because Kristen is now in the 20th week of pregnancy, it will still be an odyssey.

The thirty-one-year-old laughs again and again as she tells this story, as if four years later she still can't quite believe that this really happened to her.

It's a particularly hot summer's day in Austin, and the young woman, with her hair dyed half brown, half green at the crown and wearing a rainbow-colored T-shirt, was just gushing about the two children she looks after as a nanny.

For her it all belongs together today, telling her story, the many children in her life, among whom there is just none of her own.

Still, she says, "I might laugh now, but it's not always like that."

On May 2nd of this year, Kristen Herring will be catapulted back four years.

It was a Monday, she remembers that exactly, when the leaked draft of a constitutional court decision shook America: five out of nine judges advocated Roe v.

Wade, the nearly fifty-year-old landmark decision on abortion.

This would at least restrict, if not ban, abortions in half of the American states.