The subject of this interview, yes for the whole of this day, is baby food.

Hospice for newborn babies who are so ill that they only survive hours, days or a maximum of a few weeks after they are born.

Many of these babies would have been aborted before.

But in the autumn, the Polish Constitutional Court passed a law which means that abortion is only allowed if the pregnancy arose after the rape or involves a risk to the woman's life.

The fact that the fetus is so badly injured that the child will not survive is no longer an approved reason for abortion.

The interview I will do is with a woman who is pregnant in week 27 with a child who will die before or shortly after birth.

The child suffers from Edward's syndrome, or Trisomy 18, a disease that means that the children have an extra chromosome 18. When I read about the disease on Wikipedia, it says that it is a disease that involves many severe malformations of both external and internal organs, that it is a chromosome defect that is not compatible with life.

The woman entering the room has prepared well.

She is carefully dressed, hairdressed and made up.

I know that in the end she hesitated whether she should show up for the interview.

Her husband is against.

But something has brought her here to this room.

"I feel great admiration"

I smile at her while trying not to look happy.

I say we can interrupt, take breaks, take over - how she wants.

I give her full control over the interview and she takes control.

She starts telling, she shows that she does not want to be interrupted, she talks for an hour and a half.

Her determined calm is contagious.

I, who was so scared that I would sabotage the interview by starting to cry, also feel calm.

Through the hospice, the parents are helped to complete the pregnancy with the knowledge that the child will die.

They get psychological help and the best doctors in the field.

They are also given the opportunity for a dignified conclusion.

Life-sustaining snakes are ignored and the child is allowed to die in the arms of parents.

You get help with the funeral.

The hospice will make the grieving process easier, the opportunities to start over or continue to live longer.

In addition to the pregnant woman, I met a gynecologist who takes care of these expectant non-mothers.

I also had a conversation with one of those who started the hospice business, Małgorzata Bronka (she herself had lost three children).

I feel great admiration for the strength of these two people, that they have the strength to meet and support these parents, and see their children die.

I got to see how it goes when you take pictures of the baby, take foot or handprints or cut off a tuft of hair - all to have a memory of the child when it is gone.

I got to see the baby clothes the children are allowed to wear at their own funeral.

"Do not want to be living coffins for their children"

Both the gynecologist and the founder behind the hospice said that they were basically against abortion, they were proud to be able to offer a dignified conclusion.

But since last autumn, they have also had to take care of all the women who do not want this type of termination, women who do not want their children or themselves to have to suffer unnecessarily long.

Women who say they do not want to be living coffins for their children.

Women who want to have an abortion but are no longer allowed to do so in their own home country.

The gynecologist described how he had to let a pair of twins die in the womb so that he could no longer save one of them by aborting the other, the one who is so ill that he will die with one hundred percent certainty.

Or babies, whose lives still have to end before the birth because their deformities mean that they cannot be picked whole, but must be divided into pieces first.

This day became in a way a kind of rape of many of my ideas about life and death. Because when it is no longer about the choice between life and death but the choice between death and death, I realize that that insight is completely elusive for those who are not faced with that choice. That the decision about the end for the man is willing to love and protect most of his entire life is unique to each of the victims. But the right to her own body, there I stand - every woman should have it.