“I realized that it’s better to go to the colony, because I couldn’t live”: the story of the culprit of the fatal accident who served the sentence

"I have resigned myself to the punishment"

- Like an accident

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Ashim participation?

- I myself am to blame for it.

My driving experience was three years, I passed on the license myself.

But I was inattentive, I was driving along the highway to my parents in a neighboring region.

Before the road I had to sleep, but I didn't, I fell asleep behind the wheel and woke up from the impact.

- Did you call the police yourself?

- No, I immediately started hysterical, my hands were shaking, it was as if I was overwhelmed.

I could not even find my bearings, where I am, what I have done.

And then the very next day a realization, a feeling of guilt came over me.

If my friends and relatives had not spoken to me, I don’t know what I would have done with myself.

I still cannot remember it all.

- Did your family immediately find out about what happened?

- Yes, almost immediately.

How did they react?

How can you react to the fact that your own child knocked down a man to death?

There was panic, shock.

Then they accepted that it had happened.

- What is the position

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s taken to court?

- Naturally, I fully admitted guilt.

I started working with a psychologist, phoned all the victims ... That is, the children of the deceased, they were all adults.

I established contact with them, apologized and, of course, immediately took full responsibility.

- Did you compensate for the damage somehow?

- No civil suits were brought against me.

But I personally went to the daughter of the deceased, handed her my CTP policy and all the money that I had.

There was little money - even the car I was driving was taken on credit.

Then she sent everything she could by postal orders.

- You were given a real term.

Were you mentally prepared for this?

- No, it was not.

Until the very last moment, deep down, I hoped for a suspended sentence.

I myself am a lawyer by education, I assessed the chances and thought that there would be no colony.

And then, when the verdict of the first instance was pronounced, I resigned myself.

I was advised not to panic, to cling to procedural violations in order to "hold out" until the amnesty at large, but I gave up and resigned myself to the punishment, packed my things and went to the colony.

Yes, I was hoping for a suspended sentence, but my condition was such that I already understood: I had better go to the colony, because I could no longer just live.

While they were advising me different options on how to stay free, I had suicidal thoughts.

Yes, I appealed, but I resigned myself when she upheld the verdict and did not file a cassation appeal.

Why was I given a real term?

In our region, the practice is quite tough in terms of fatal accidents.

In Moscow, for example, if you extinguish civil lawsuits and make peace with the victims, you can get a suspended sentence, but here everything is tougher.

"Soul must not be poured out to anyone"

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s incarcerated?

How

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ace took?

- I was serving my sentence in a penal colony in the Perm Territory.

I can’t say that I received it as something particularly bad or good.

The first two weeks were quarantine, this is mandatory for everyone.

Then it took me two or three months to adjust, adapt.

All convicts as one say that they are innocent, that they are imprisoned for nothing, and one also needs to adapt to this.

As for the regime, our colony-settlement was called so formally, the head of the colony established strict rules and a regime there.

- Who did you communicate with in the colony?

- In the colony, there are two options for behavior: either you join a group of convicts, or you keep on your own.

At first I was on my own.

Further, all the people there are different, we had a mixed colony-settlement: there was a male hostel, there was a female one.

There were many not "first movers", there were convicted of fraud, there was a man convicted of rape ...

There are no special colonies for road traffic accidents.

We also had those convicted in the case of a fire in the Lame Horse club (in 2009 in Perm there was a fire in the Lame Horse nightclub, 156 people died. eight people were sentenced to real terms of imprisonment

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).

After a few months, I had a social circle, but in such a society you have to be very careful and adhere to the rules.

- Was it scary at first?

- I was very afraid of women in the colony.

We had a senior looking at the barrack.

She kept order, was in contact with the administration of the colony, did not work - it seemed that she was disabled.

And she had her own confidants.

There was a dandelion grandmother, an invalid, she was imprisoned for fraud.

Later I realized that she was "tapping" the authorities.

There you have to play by the rules and be superficial, you cannot reveal your soul.

One of the convicts in the Lame Horse case, for example, somehow put herself very well, and then, she was at an age, she could say a word.

And I was a naive girl, I didn't know what and how.

But in general it depends on the person.

And there are also FSIN officers who can, for the slightest, from their point of view, offense, fix a violation, and then you will not be able to get out on parole.

There are convicts who steal things, there are those who "knock" on the FSIN officers, there are those who just work.

You can't pour your soul out to anyone there.

- To what extent do women in the colony retain social ties outside?

Many husbands, relatives, friends are waiting for?

- It all depends on who the person was before he got there.

The same road traffic accidents are, as a rule, the most ordinary people, often with higher education.

If a person in the wild had good relations in the family, then most often these connections remain.

If, for example, a girl is dysfunctional, from an orphanage, then no one is waiting for her.

In such cases, “couples” are often formed in the colony - women walk by the hand, eat together in the canteen, and work.

And there was, for example, a married girl, also an accident, like me, and her husband was waiting and supporting her.

- We often read that the zones where women sit are “red”, that is, the main ones are the administration, and not prisoners with a high prison status.

- I am a lawyer, and serving my sentence helped me even to visit the place of my current charges.

I will say this, almost all prisons and pre-trial detention centers are now "red".

"Black" zones are still concepts from the 90s, just like AUE *.

Now this is already being eradicated at the level of legislation, and in reality there is almost no such thing in the colonies.

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am often came home on a date?

- I didn't have dates.

Parents live in another region, they are elderly.

When it comes to my social connections, my world is divided into "before" and "after".

From those from whom I expected support, I hardly received it.

Moreover, I kept what happened almost secret: this fact is still known only to close people or those to whom I consider it necessary, including at work, to say it.

But those acquaintances from whom I did not expect anything, somehow they found out anyway, found out the address of the colony, wrote letters, made parcels.

My connection with the outside world was correspondence.

"The system is imprisoned for punishment"

- As far as the penal system, according

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Hashem consider will repent and correct?

- Doesn't help at all.

The system is designed for punishment, but not for correction.

The employees of the colony are indifferent to you, for them we are all convicts, and they adhere to their own line.

Therefore, either a person by himself will remain a criminal in his soul, and then sit down a second, third time, or he is inclined to correct himself, and then he will come out and will not break the law.

It does not depend on imprisonment.

- How

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's aware of what has happened over time, they come to repentance?

- After what happened, I cursed myself.

I could not sleep, there was depression, suicidal thoughts.

I didn't even want to die, no - to die.

It was unbearable to see the grief of the people close to the one I knocked to death.

At the trial, the hardest thing was not to listen to the verdict, but to see the victims when you understand that there is no turning back.

Stolen money is one thing: it can be returned.

And here we are talking about a person's life.

I myself changed after that, became more strict, closed.

- When

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s were released under an amnesty, it was hard to re-adapt to normal life?

- I was very lucky: there were people who were waiting for me.

My boss was waiting for me, a lawyer with whom I was an assistant.

I was supported by people who wrote to me in the colony.

And I also had nothing to live on, and one friend - not even close - let me first live with her free of charge, and then I got on my feet.

But if a person does not have a family, there is no financial support, then it is very difficult to return from such places and build life from scratch.

- When he was released,

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s become a lawyer.

Why?

- I worked as a lawyer before what happened.

I love my job, and I did not even allow the thought to give it up.

My experience helps to better understand the clients.

I'm not even about empathy, but about understanding what exactly awaits them, so I try to do my job to the maximum.

And whether a person will draw conclusions later or not is not in my power.

- What is the position

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s would be advised to hold in court people convicted in fatal accidents?

- The most correct position is a complete admission of guilt and repentance.

Take, for example, the case of Mikhail Efremov.

I don’t know on what basis he chose the defenders, what the lawyers said and promised him, but I don’t understand why it was necessary to start the procedural game “I admit - I don’t admit”, “I was driving - it was not me”.

The judge and the prosecutor are not fools, they understand everything.

Only the position of admitting guilt and establishing contact with victims and relatives can mitigate the punishment.

You cannot go into the wall, and the contact should not be established by a lawyer, but by the person responsible for the accident.

I literally take my clients by the hand and say: call the victims.

If you don't want to communicate, send them at least a telegram.

I understand that the culprit of the accident is also bad, he is gnawed by a feeling of guilt, but this must be done.

- What's

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s think about the accident in Moscow, where a student was hit by the death of two of the three children?

- I have two opinions here: the man in the street, who was at the same time in the place of the culprit, and the second - a lawyer.

I watched the video of the accident, I see what is happening on Russian roads.

I understand what my relatives are going through, and I myself am horrified by what happened.

I myself was almost knocked down several times at a pedestrian crossing, and after what happened in my life, I walk very carefully, I look around.

People have no vigilance, and the traffic rules know by heart about 10 percent of drivers.

Not everyone appreciates the potential and real danger.

Her speed was decent, and she was distracted at the wheel.

At the same time, there is a question why the children did not cross the road next to the adults, but ran in front.

Now my position as a defender.

I would advise the girl's relatives not to develop activity and not to connect any connections, the society is fed up with this: the same case of the blogger Edward Beal, the case of Efremov ... The case of Valeria Bashkirova has already become resonant.

This girl herself - she is 18 years old - she is not yet a formed person, her world has collapsed now.

But we must find the strength to admit guilt, apologize, and this should be done by her, but not by her father.

It seems to me that the fact that my father worked in the law enforcement agencies in the past will only make the public more angry, so she will have to work herself together with a lawyer.

- Do you drive a car now?

- No.

I have a license, but after what happened, I have never sat behind the wheel.

* The International Public Movement "Prisoner Criminal Unity" (AUE) was recognized as extremist and banned on the territory of Russia by the decision of the Supreme Court of the Russian Federation dated 17.08.