The raging Israeli war, which continues for the tenth day in a row, is ravaging the wounds of those who have lived through its four wars on the Gaza Strip over the past 15 years (since 2008-2009), lost their loved ones and witnessed various crimes of aggression.

The families of the martyrs live the current war with mixed feelings that mix between memories of the loss of their loved ones in previous wars, and the fear of living the bitter experience again, while they smell the smell of death emanating from everywhere around them.

Bilal Nizar Rayan is one of those whose painful memories of 12 years have passed in the current war, reviving a feeling of loss in his father, a leader of the Islamic Resistance Movement (Hamas), his four wives and 12 of his children, in an Israeli air strike that destroyed their 6-storey house above their heads.

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- Bilal Nizar Rayan (@elalalezar) May 17, 2021

Tattooed memory

Since the outbreak of the war, Bilal has been following up on the intense Israeli targeting of residential buildings, and he remembers a famous phrase of his martyr father, "We will not flee twice ... we have displaced from Ashkelon shoes, and we will not flee again," a phrase he made when Israel began its policy of targeting homes in the first war on Gaza in late 2008 and early 2009 .

At that time, the martyr Rayan launched an initiative in which he personally participated in heading to the houses threatened with targeting and forming a "human cordon" around them to prevent their destruction. However, he and his family were targeted in a surprise Israeli raid without prior warning, his son tells Al-Jazeera Net.

With the painful Israeli bombing scenes in Gaza, Bilal (37 years) recalls what happened to his family, evoking the moments of his standing in front of their bodies in the refrigerators of the dead, adding, "The loss of loved ones is the most severe on the soul, because everything can be forgotten and compensated .. It was painful moments that I do not wish anyone to see." pass by it".

According to Bilal, the loss of Aziz causes a lot of physical and psychological pain that requires many years of treatment, but it remains in memory, and with the occurrence of similar circumstances such as wars, the wound will bleed again.

The martyr leader’s son said, “This is our destiny to face a criminal occupation that has no prohibitions ... that kills without a reason and destroys everything without justification.”

Martyr on her birthday

Seven years after the death of her daughter Joud (two years old) in an Israeli air strike that targeted her and other children in front of their home in northern Gaza City, the memory of her mother, Umm Al-Daf, is still alive and storing that horrific scene.

Umm Ayman told Al-Jazeera Net, "A day after we celebrated her second birthday, Judd was playing in front of the house, accompanied by her sister Amal, who is 4 years her senior, and other children. An explosion occurred and the object of the cursed Israeli plane was none other than these innocent children."

Judd was martyred immediately, and Amal was hit by shrapnel in her body, which is still suffering from her pain and its effects even now, according to their mother, Umm Ayman.

In that war, in 2014, Ayman's mother fled from the house, fearing for her children (11 individuals), and in the current war, she says that she was displaced again from another house in a different area after it suffered material damage as a result of violent air strikes.

And every moment of the current war, Ayman's mother is worried about her children, and with every explosion she senses them one by one, and in her imagination the image of her daughter Judd covered in her blood and she breathed her last in her hands, and she says, "She was the youngest of the children and the last of the cluster .. Oh Lord, every mother who lost patience The pleasure of her liver. "

A Palestinian father bids farewell to his daughter in tears during her funeral, who was the victim of the Israeli bombing of the Gaza Strip yesterday night # Palestine # Jerusalem # Al-Aqsa Mosque # Gaza_UnderAttack #PalestineUnderAttack #GenocideinGaza pic.twitter.com/KR1b8V3r

- Al Jazeera Mubasher (@ajmubasher) May 16, 2021

Target a corpse!

Mounir Abu Samaha remembers with great sorrow how he left the body of his sister Sabreen (18 years old) at home, after the occupation forces refused to allow ambulances to reach and pick them up, and he was displaced with his family on a terrifying day in the first days of the war on Gaza.

Abu Samaha told Al-Jazeera Net, "Sabreen was martyred by an Israeli sniper bullet while she was inside the house in an area that the occupation forces invaded north of Gaza City on the first day of the war, and she remained next to us for 10 days without being allowed to the ambulance to pull her out."

On the tenth day of the war, Munir was forced to wrap the body of his martyr sister with a blanket and flee with his family in the wake of the explosions, and he returned after the end of the war to find severe damage to the house and shrapnel of glass and debris covering the body.

Munir fled with his family of 4 in the first moments of the outbreak of the current war towards a shelter center in a school affiliated to the United Nations Relief and Works Agency for Palestine Refugees (UNRWA) in a third displacement experience, and said, "With the first Israeli raid, I remembered Sabreen, and I do not want the tragedy to repeat again." .