- It's a shame.

No one in my family or my friends knows.

In retrospect, she has tried to solve the puzzle a hundred times.

But pieces are always missing.

Large gaps that form question marks.

At home in the villa, a photo in a silver frame is on the bookshelf.

It shows a boy in red swimming trunks drinking a soda by a pool of turquoise blue water.

He laughs.

He is 15 years old and visits relatives in the Syrian city of Homs.

Later he would become one of the Swedes who went to Syria and joined IS - the terrorists who persecuted, expelled and murdered Christians.

No one around Maryam knows.

Not even Maryam's mother who lives in Homs knows.

Converted and became a Muslim

Adam became interested in the Koran in high school.

And soon after, he converted and became a Muslim.

His whole being changed, and it went fast.

He grew his beard, wore traditional religious clothing.

Adam begins to try to persuade Maryam to convert to Islam.

He wanted to save her from going to hell.

She refused.

One day he stopped answering when Maryam called.

Just over a month later, he wrote that he was in Syria.

It was the summer of 2014. After that, he heard from time to time.

- Every time he wrote mom was not worried, I feel good and stuff.

He wrote that he wanted to live there and live in an Islamic country.

- I told him again and again that it was wrong, that he should come home.

One day he wrote that he was getting married.

- I asked who she is, but he did not answer but sent a picture of her with those black clothes.

I answered and said she looks like a ninja.

Broke contact with the mother

For a long time, Adam broke off contact with his mother because she was kaffir, unfaithful.

But then he asked her to send money to a car.

- I replied that they could ride a donkey.

You want to live like in Muhammad's time.

Then there were no cars.

Can you stop loving your child?

- It's even children what they do.

I just think over and over again how could he leave?

I can not understand it.

It makes me pissed and angry.

I hate what he did.

But how can you stop loving your child?

What do you hope will happen now?

- If he has committed a crime, he must be imprisoned.

But do not let him die over there.

He has been without trial for four years.

We do not even know if he is alive.

Footnote: Adam has been in prison in northeastern Syria for four years. At present, there is no forecast for when, or if, there will be any trials.