Jean-Luc, who has just separated from a woman he spent six years with, feels his love stories always end in the same way.

A diagram that he tries to analyze at the microphone of Sabine Marin, in "La Libre antenna", on Europe 1. 

TESTIMONY

Three weeks ago, Jean-Luc and his partner, with whom he had been in a relationship for six years, separated.

A painful breakup for this man who is approaching retirement and realizes that his love stories often end in the same way.

At the microphone of "La Libre antenna", on Europe 1, he confides that he sometimes has trouble expressing himself, which several of his concubines have accused him of. 

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"I'm in my sixties and I have a problem: I can't stay long with the women I love ... And who love me more! It's often me who breaks up and I have the I feel like I'm exhausting myself They expect more than I can give, I think, and yet I try. I'm very clumsy, I can't give them the happiness they expect from me.

(…) I have the impression that at the beginning, it works very well and at the end I feel that I am exhausting myself.

No matter how much I do, I get lost and get bogged down completely.

And then it all ends in weariness and it does not go any further.

(…)

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I've always been the ugly duckling, the one we didn't expect

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My various companions tell me that I live a bit in the past, maybe a bit too much.

(…) But I also want to move forward, I simply have trouble with new technologies, at the computer level, for example to prepare a romantic weekend with online payments.

I have a hard time with these things, I'm not very good at it.

(...)

I've always been the ugly duckling, the one we never expected.

At the time, there was no contraception and I arrived like that.

I never had a room.

My father was a sailor and unfortunately he was not at home.

I have a brother and a sister, but I am the youngest. 

I burnt my hand when I was a kid, I put my hand in a frying pan.

I had a bit of a hectic childhood and whenever there was something, it fell on me.

My brother and sister climbed the trees and swam like fish.

Me, I will not succeed at all.

I would take a bike, I would get out of the street, I was going to get my ass right away.

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Still, I'm looking for a fairly straightforward relationship

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I have the impression of being afraid of the future, of moving forward.

I feel like I drown completely sometimes.

I tried to learn a little about myself.

I have also learned that I may be a little too demanding.

I am a little too much in my past, that's for sure.

I am always afraid of making mistakes, of falling or of making mistakes.

There, I have retirement coming, it scared us too.

(…)

With my last companion, we spent six years together and that ended three weeks ago.

I always find myself in the same things.

With the confinement, it is true that we had moved away too.

When I sent her flowers, I didn't know what to put on the little piece of paper.

I should have put: 'I can not wait to find you, I love you'.

But I couldn't put a word on this paper.

She told me that.

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I didn't know what to put on other than 'kisses'.

It stays too deep inside me.

I do not express myself enough on this, for fear of shame, of ridicule too.

I try to do things, I prepare things and it is never right.

(…) I blame myself, I said to myself: 'But why didn't you do this, why didn't you do that, why you didn't call her?'

Still, I'm looking for a fairly straightforward relationship.

I am a fairly open person.

I didn't do any major studies, that's for sure.

But hey, I cultivated myself outside of school.

(…) I have humor, I move forward in spite of everything, I am always in a good mood.

I like to laugh. "