Mauricette feels guilty about having entrusted her twin sister to a retirement home.

They had lived together for ten years, but Mauricette could no longer take care of her sister, whose health was deteriorating a lot.

At the microphone of "La Libre antenna", on Europe 1, she confides her torment to Olivier Delacroix.

TESTIMONY

Mauricette and her twin sister, Lucette, have lived together for the past ten years since their husband's death.

Unable to take care of her sister, whose health was deteriorating a lot, Mauricette was forced to entrust her to a retirement home.

This solution saddens her and makes her feel guilty, in particular because visits are restricted due to the health crisis.

On "La Libre antenna" of Europe 1, Mauricette evokes the isolated daily life of her sister and their twinning.

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"I am 87 years old. I have a twin sister. We are the last of six siblings. I have always had a lot of contact with my sister. We were raised together. We are nearing the end of our life. life, and she has a lot of health issues. She's had two or three strokes. She's kind of parted in her world. She never lets go of me, so I wanted to keep her at home. I'm so sad to have had to put her in a retirement home. 

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She sometimes calls me six times in half an hour

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I'm going to lose health because it's my twin sister.

We were tied for nine months, we only cut the umbilical cord at birth.

We are very close to each other.

I put her in this retirement home because I can't take care of her, I'm the same age as her.

She is tiring.

I blame myself a lot.

She tells me she's fine, she's not complaining.

Sometimes she calls me six times in half an hour.

I do not want to cut this cord, it is only me who allows him to resist the atmosphere.

Because of the Covid-19, to go see her, you have to take a test, make an appointment and you can only stay 45 minutes.

I do it while I can.

I am very vigilant.

We only see each other through plastics and we are not allowed to touch each other.

I am not allowed to go up to his room.

If I bring him something, we never give it right away.

She does not understand this virus.

She's under a lot of stress.

She says she sees my car in the parking lot and I'm not going up to see her. 

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The relationship between twins is very deep

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I have tried different formats.

I first tried a formula that exists in the Pays de la Loire so that she goes two days a week to an institution where a facilitator forced them to do things.

I wasn't there, so she didn't want to incorporate.

Afterwards, I tried to take someone home to do the morning toilet.

Other than me, she doesn't want to be taken care of.

Even if until now, I have never groomed him.

She has this overly emotional relationship with me.

I have a daughter she tolerates, but that's it.

My other children, my grandchildren and my great grandchildren, she does not tolerate them, because she has to share me.

I still cannot cut myself off from my children.

She never had children.

The relationship between twins is very deep.

Her husband fought in the Algerian war and she was injured there.

She never told me, but I did.

In the night, I woke up and told myself that my sister was hurt. 

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I have a bad conscience

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I feel guilty.

I annoy everyone with this.

We should never have put it in there.

She feels isolated.

They were forced to lock her door for a month.

It was horrible.

She would have kicked down the door to get out, she didn't want to stay locked up.

We lived in a very big house and now it's in 20 square meters.

That's what bothers her.

She was trying to save herself, because she wants to come back.

But she doesn't remember where I live. 

She doesn't want to be cut off from me, even in the nursing home.

She lived the last ten years with me, because we were widows.

It has been ten years of happiness for her and for me.

His room was next to mine.

At night, she got up and went to the next room, she thought it was still her sister.

Now she can't do it anymore, she's tied up in her bed.

It's hard to detach her from all this, but she mustn't detach herself from it.

It is his only support.

I am desperate and have a bad conscience. 

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She has been there six months.

She has already made two stays at the Nantes University Hospital, because she had two strokes.

The last time, she fell and broke her neck of the femur.

It was a month ago.

His health is deteriorating a lot.

I don't see a solution.

I am tired.

I have shingles and psoriasis.

I am starting to lose my health.

It's stress.

Skin diseases are a corollary of all the grief we have.

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