Harassed at work, Eva suffered a burnout and has since suffered from depression and mood disorders.

A depression that she fears she will not be able to overcome.

At the microphone of "La Libre antenne" on Europe 1, Eva evokes the harassment at work which has led her to burnout and depression.

TESTIMONY

After a burnout, Eva fell into a depression, which lasted a year and a half.

It was the constant criticism and pressure at work that led her to burnout.

This case of harassment at work will be brought to justice.

Today Eva is depressed again after trying to return to work.

Depression accompanied by mood swings.

At the microphone of Sabine Marin, on "La Libre antenna" of Europe 1, Eva says she fears not being able to overcome this depression.

>> Listen to Eva's testimony in full here

"I had depression in 2018 following a burnout. It lasted 18 months. I went back to work. Then, I had pneumonia and at the same time bipolar syndrome. It was the first time. I was aware that I was very euphoric. I started taking pictures, writing. I didn't get much sleep. My husband found me strange. My psychiatrist told me that I am not bipolar, but "I have mood disorders. During the manic phase that I had, I put myself in danger. It's true that you feel all-powerful." 

Having suffered from burnout and depression, I thought it was my way of regaining a taste for life.

In fact, I was still sick.

I have a treatment consisting of a mood regulator, an antidepressant and something to sleep on.

My psychiatrist told me that I absolutely had to take my medication and that it took at least a year to heal it.

I trust my therapist, so I take the drugs.

But I have three kids, I can't be in the gas all day. 

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We mistreat you, we diminish you, we say that you do your job badly

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I experienced harassment at work and it completely devastated me.

This is a case that will go to court.

It will certainly rekindle pain, but I am able to let go of it.

They wanted to eliminate all part-time because we were disrupting the smooth running of the business.

We don't tell you things and if you don't understand, we harass you, we mistreat you, we diminish you, we say that you do your job badly, we hide a job well done. 

I went on individual training leave because I couldn't take it anymore.

After a year, I returned to my workplace.

My old boss watched everything I did.

As I was coming back from a year's absence, I should normally receive three weeks of training.

They estimated that I needed only two days of training.

The person who was supposed to train me didn't want to do it.

It was a time when I was in bad shape since I was being given impromptu interviews. 

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I was eaten up by stress

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It was always criticism, even though I had been in this company for 15 years.

To destabilize me, I was given 30 to 40 emails to process in two hours with skills that were not mine.

I was eaten up by stress.

When the person didn't want to do the training, I was in tears.

I went to the training manager's office and three people were waiting for me.

They put me in the face.

When I left, I had a panic attack.

I swallowed a box of anxiolytics at my workplace. 

I asked the occupational doctor and the union representatives.

No one wanted to do their job.

The occupational doctor said it was I who had the problem.

After that, I had a big depression that lasted a year and a half.

I was not completely healed and wanted to go back to work.

I fell into a new depression.

I took a lawyer who takes care of the situation.

And there is still another two years before it goes to court.

I did it symbolically to be recognized as a victim. 

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I can't seem to find the motor that could help me out of this depression.

I would love to get out of it, but I'm not doing anything for it.

I am waiting, and the time is long.

I isolated myself.

I would like to return to my previous life, the one where I was dynamic, where I was able to go to work and take care of my children.

My fear is to stay like this for years.

The notion of pleasure does not exist.

The desire does not exist.

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