His companion left him because of his alcoholism: "I cannot imagine my life without her"

TESTIMONY

Five years ago, Sébastien fell in love with a woman for whom he left everything.

Their relationship was marred by his addiction to alcohol.

After yet another relapse, his partner put an end to their relationship.

Sébastien says he cannot imagine his life without her, but is aware of having lost the confidence of the woman he loves.

At the microphone of Olivier Delacroix, on "La Libre antenna" of Europe 1, Sébastien tells how his addiction to alcohol spoiled his romantic relationship.

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"I moved to the east of France five years ago. I was married with two children at the time. In the course of my job, I met someone who I am madly in love with. She's a person for whom I left everything. It's the best story of my life. During those years, alcohol problems punctuated my life. I did not drink alcohol every day. I could go months without drinking a drop of alcohol, but at times when I was not well I would cure myself with alcohol and use it as an anti-anxiety medication. 

One of the causes that drove me to drink was anxiety

It necessarily marred my relationship.

I can understand that for the other, it is something that is scary.

There were several breakups, then we got back together.

One day it was getting better, we decided to move in together.

It has been wonderful.

After three months, I relapsed.

My darling decided to kick me out and call my family to come get me.

It was the trigger, I decided to do a cure, something I should have done a long time ago.

I took care of things that I had never taken care of before.

After a few months, we got back together by living in separate apartments.

She didn't want us to live together anymore.

She has a baby girl and was afraid for her.

Before the Covid, I decided to stop my antidepressant treatment overnight, thinking I was better.

Containment came with its share of anguish.

One of the causes that drove me to drink was anxiety.

I relapsed.

Unable to reach me, my partner called the police.

The police found me at home very badly.

She said to me: "This time it's too much, we stop."

I can't get this girl out of my head

Today, the situation is this.

I can't get this girl out of my head.

She's the woman of my life.

She tells me that she still loves me, but that she doesn't know if she will be able to overcome this fear that I will do it again.

For a very long time, she believed that I was choosing alcohol over love, when it was something independent.

It never affected my love for her.

I'm unhappy because I love someone who told me, "Don't wait for me, make your life."

I keep telling him that I will wait because I have only her in mind.

During confinement, she decided to buy her apartment in the countryside.

It made me weird because I thought that one day we were going to do this together.

She is concerned about trusting men in general.

She told me I was the first one she trusted.

During this

weekend 

, she saw that I had gone to an

.

It hurt him.

She tells me that part of the confidence is no longer there. 

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It becomes sickly.

When I wake up in the morning, I check to see if she hasn't sent me a message.

I can't imagine my life without her.

I know we can't redo the past.

I want to use these difficulties from the past to move forward, but she has a blockage.

I wonder if I should keep hanging on.

It is independent by nature.

She often tells me that she could very well conceive of a life as a couple by living each at home, whereas my ultimate dream is to make my life with her. "