"You really don't have to compare your suffering, your pain, your efforts, your achievements,"
she said in an essay about how she recovered from a suicide attempt at the age of 16.
Now, voices saying that they have been saved by these words are spreading on SNS.
"There is no need to suffer, suffer, or compare."
On March 3, "Life Phone Fukuoka" and other organizations held a lecture on suicide prevention in Fukuoka City.
Eri Mazuka (5), who lives in Oita Prefecture and is known as a "poet in a wheelchair," gave a lecture.
Eri Mazuka
: "Really, there is no need to compare your own suffering, hardship, hard work, achievements, because your pain, my hardship, is undeniably real."
As a result of continuing to blame myself, I attempted suicide at the age of 16
Ever since she was a child, she has wanted to live up to her parents' expectations.
In the high school entrance exam, after studying hard, you will enter one of the leading preparatory schools in the prefecture.
However, I gradually became unable to keep up with my studies and began to suffer from mental and physical problems.
As a result of blaming herself, "What a fool I am," she sometimes couldn't get up in the morning and couldn't move until the evening.
One day I was absent without notice.
After her mother reprimanded her for not going to school, she impulsively jumped off the balcony of her home, saying, "I don't belong anywhere anymore."
Although he managed to survive, he damaged his cervical spine and doctors told him he would never be able to walk again.
Awareness of "Diverse Values: How Happiness Should Be"
Long hospital stay.
In fact, his experience at this hospital was a turning point that changed his way of thinking.
Meeting various people that I couldn't meet at school changed my desire to do something.
Seeing a woman with dementia who is admitted to the same room and loved by her caregivers no matter how much trouble she causes her realizes that there are diverse values and that happiness is different for each person.
A person who was saved by Mr. Mazuka's words "I was able to affirm myself"
Mr. Mazuka summarized his experiences so far in an essay titled "Until the Desire to Do It Disappears," which was published last year.
This is Kana-san (pseudonym), who read a book and was saved by Mr. Mazuka's words.
When she was in high school, she was a truant for a while, and she says, "Let's stop comparing our suffering with others."
Kana-san
: "There are moments in my daily life when I feel suffocated, but when people around me tell me that there are people who are having a harder time, I wonder if I'm wrong. That's why I was able to affirm myself with Mr. Mazuka's words."
The number of children and students who take their own lives is the highest ever.
The number of elementary, junior high, and high school students who took their own lives has increased especially since 2020, when the new corona infection spread, and last year it was 514, the highest number since Showa 55, when statistics are available.
"Life never ends, I want you to survive somehow."
For those who have a desire to do something, Mr. Mazuka calls on them as follows.
Eri Mazuka
: "I thought my life was already over, and it was pitch black, but it never ends. Please be hopeful, at least you don't have to work hard until you become an adult, so I want you to survive somehow. It will be much easier to live than it is now."
"Until the feeling of wanting to do something disappears"
In his essay "Until the Desire to Do It Disappears," Mr. Mazuka describes how a positive feeling for tomorrow grows in himself from casual conversations with the people around him.
I'll
tell you again slowly, I don't know
when or where it is, but it affirmed that
I would still be alive tomorrow
(essay "Until the feeling of wanting to do it
disappears"). more)
The Ministry of Health, Labour and Welfare introduces consultation services such as telephone and SNS.
▽ "#いのちSOS" conducted by NPO "Suicide Prevention Support Center Lifelink" (0120-061-338) ▽ "Yorisoi Hotline" conducted by the "Social Inclusion Support Center"
(0120-279-338)
* From Iwate, Miyagi, and Fukushima (0120-279-226)
▽ "Life Telephone" (0120-783-556)
conducted by the "Japan Life Telephone Federation"
▽ Connected to telephone consultations conducted by prefectural governments Unified Dial for Mental Health Consultation (
0570-064-556)
In addition, the following consultation services for children are also introduced.
▽"Childline" conducted by NPO "Childline Support Center" (0120-99-7777) ▽"24-hour children's SOS dial"
conducted by the Ministry of Education, Culture, Sports, Science and Technology (0120-0-78310)
▽The Ministry of Justice's "Children's Human Rights 110" (0120-007-110)
homepage can also be searched for "
Mamoro yokoro".
Ministry of Health, Labour and Welfare "Mamoro yokokoro"
*Leave the NHK site