Jennifer Lopez has had the greatest difficulty in recovering from her first breakup with Ben Affleck.

The couple have been in the spotlight since last year, when the two actors got back together.

But when they separated in 2004, after four years of relationship, the actress and singer was deeply affected.

Asked by Zane Lowe on the occasion of the 20th anniversary of her third album,

This is Me… Then

(which told about her love affair with the star of

Will Hunting

), JLo confided the distress in which she found herself at the time.

“It was so painful after our breakup.

When we annulled this marriage 20 years ago, it was the biggest heartache of my life.

And honestly, I felt like I was going to die.

It put me in a spiral for the next 18 years where I couldn't get it right.

But now, 20 years later, there is a happy ending.

It's an end that would never come to Hollywood.

They'd be like, 'It's never gonna happen, we're not going to write it down because nobody would believe it,'” she explained.

Logical sequence

As she prepares to release the "logical sequel" to her third opus, titled

This is Me...Now

, Jennifer Lopez has delivered on the "prophetic" side of this precise moment in her career.

“This album,

This is Me…Then

, really captured a moment when I fell in love with the love of my life.

It's all there, on the album, and I didn't even understand what was going on or what I was doing.

It was just going every day from the set to the recording studio, doing the thing, being in love, having him walk into the studio.

When I listen to the lyrics now, I didn't even realize that I was writing part of our story that was going to happen, and that's crazy.

I didn't even realize it was sort of prophetic,” she explained.

Today, she has never been so happy and in love… and that's good: it's in this kind of moment that she is most productive musically.

“When he came back into my life, the same thing happened: I felt so inspired and so overwhelmed with emotion that it was pouring out of me.

When I feel good, I write music.

And I wrote music.

I entered the studio in May, I believe, and in August, when we got married, it was over,” she detailed.

Jennifer Lopez didn't reveal the release date for

This is Me… Now

, but on her Instagram account, she posted the tracklist, along with a video showing the year "2023".


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