An HIV-infected person's four-year anti-AI road

He used to think that life would fall into darkness

But saw light in a hug from the nurse

　　Our reporter He Lina, correspondent Shen Wenli

　　The cold air is entrained in the rain and brings a pressing chill, but the bright (pseudonym) heart is full of spring.

He returned to his job where he had been away for 4 years. He said that he must catch up quickly. His dream was only temporarily interrupted, and he will work harder next.

　　Bright, 39 years old, is an educator, gentle, optimistic and open-minded.

In the past four years, he has experienced the darkest life due to HIV (AIDS) and depression.

Today, looking back at that period of time, he said that everything is relieved and he has become brave enough.

　　He also wanted to say that he was grateful to his parents for tolerating him and giving him endless love and support.

He could not forget that the medical care of the Second Department of Psychology, Hangzhou Xixi Hospital, Zhejiang University School of Medicine, was their understatement, "Everything will pass", a warm hug, a quiet listening...Continue to encourage him, let He had the courage to walk out of the mist.

That warm hug late at night 　

Gave him the courage to live

　　Calling back to July 2017, Mingliang received the news that his companion who had been with him for ten years had passed away, and he was very sad.

But what makes him even more sad is that his partner left because of pneumonia caused by HIV.

　　Two months later, Mingliang was also diagnosed with HIV positive, so he went to the hospital for treatment.

　　The first time she was hospitalized, she was accompanied by her younger sister, with a gentle, bright and melancholy expression.

The nurse on duty, Han Jie, seriously taught him health. He listened to her while watching her, but he stopped talking several times.

He didn't ask in a low voice until before entering the ward, "Is my life over?"

　　"It's not such an exaggeration. I have seen a lot of (HIV-infected) patients. They are all living well now!" Han Jie blurted out.

　　"Everything will pass." Deputy Chief Physician Zhang Zhongdong also said lightly.

　　Ming Ming said frankly that at the time, he didn't believe it, he felt that they were just comforting himself, and only now has he discovered that there is a deep and powerful encouragement inside.

I still remember that during the first 20 days of hospitalization, the doctors and nurses were very approachable and never treated him sympathetically, as if a common disease was being treated. This gradually relieved him of the heavy psychological pressure.

　　The diagnosis of HIV is a very important life event for anyone.

Brightness just admitted to the hospital is always silent, and will naturally be paid more attention by doctors and nurses.

　　At midnight on the second day of hospitalization, I couldn't sleep brightly, and sat preoccupied at the corner of the corridor at the end of the ward.

At this time, the nurse Yang Zhenzhen came over, and his first reaction was that she would definitely criticize him for running around in the middle of the night, so she hurriedly smiled apologetically at her.

Who knows that instead of blaming him, she leaned down and hugged him and said, "You can't sleep, you can sit here. But promise me, go back to the room later, it's cold here."

　　After four years, Mingliang said, he still remembered the calming temperature in her embrace.

That late night, this temperature stopped him from finding a place to die, and in a sense gave him the courage to live.

　　Because she made him feel that even if this nasty virus in his body will linger in this life, there are still people in this world who are willing to give him light.

Put it to death and live after 　

Find a sustenance for your abilities

　　During that period, a series of blows caused Mingliang to suffer from severe depression.

"Apart from going to the hospital for treatment, I hardly go out of the house. Others see me as a person without words, but my heart is actually turbulent. It is because the medical staff of the second department listened to me patiently and also awakened me. dream."

　　It was another late night in hospital.

Bright insomnia, I walked to the nurse's station unconsciously.

Upon seeing this, the nurse on duty Ge Qunying chatted with him for a long time.

That night, he could not help telling her a lot of his past.

She didn't interrupt him, just listened quietly.

Because she felt that perhaps he would forgive himself by saying everything.

　　One day at noon, Bright, leaning back against the French window at the end of the outpatient corridor, enjoying the warm sunshine through the window glass, while listening to nurse Zheng Guoxiang explain some examples of how to cure insomnia patients.

She gave him a lot of suggestions, these solutions, for countless nights thereafter, gave him many dreams that lasted all night.

　　"In one of the dreams, she was standing by the French window at noon that day, and the sun set her fluffy hair into a golden outline. She said to me:'Bright, I'll introduce you to a friend?' Now, She is a well-known "matchmaker" in the second department, and has become a red line for many patients. One end of the red line is the marriage, and the other end is the hope of the two lives for the future." Mingliang said.

　　Vice Dean Yu Jianhua is a light to awaken his dreams.

I still remember that it was an afternoon. He finished the discharge procedures and was going to go home. Yu Jianhua called him downstairs in the hospital and chatted for a long time.

He said: "I have treated a lot of (HIV) infected people. I hope that they will not only live healthy, but also live happily. If you die and live, you have to find a sustenance for your abilities." After that day, Mingliang asked himself for the first time: "Can you really not pick up your former good at and hobbies and save yourself?"

　　The head nurse, Yan Dingyan, has been working hard to help Mingliang open his heart.

She insists that only by doing something she is good at can she find her value again.

Hearing that Mingliang was well-educated, very talented, and could write a good article, she encouraged him to pick up a pen and write.

　　Fortunately, all these well-intentioned, bright-hearted have been heard.

　　At the beginning of 2021, he made up his mind to write down his experiences and thoughts.

"The first long article is to recall and record the story of me and my companions. I found that it was a process of understanding with myself. After I finished writing in one go, I couldn't help sending a long-lost circle of friends, relatives and friends. People gave me praise one after another. Many colleagues came to see me and had a meal with me.” He smiled and said, climbing out of the trough, and suddenly he became bright, living is precious, and being happy is very important.