Chinanews.com, Ulanchabu, May 18th, title: "Post-00" poets living with mentally ill mothers: Unwilling to lose in the starting line of education

　　China News Service reporter Li Aiping

　　54-year-old Xing Xiurong instinctively resists when she sees a stranger, she will look at the visitor with her left light.

　　This rural woman who has suffered from intermittent mental illness for many years lives in Zhangjiawan, Fengzhen City, Inner Mongolia Autonomous Region. She barely said a word when she was calm.

　　"But when she had an attack, it was very scary. She would use a knife to intimidate me, make me obey, and prevent me from leaving her for a while." Her daughter Li Hua said in an interview with reporters recently.

"Maybe it's afraid that people will take me away."

　　Li Hua is 17 years old this year and is an emerging poet. Regarding her mother's abnormal behavior, she believes that "mother is very painful."

　　According to most local people, more than 30 years ago, Xing Xiurong was quite strong academically, but when she took the high school entrance examination, due to many reasons, she failed to make the list, so she had mental problems.

　　"The best education she gave me was to lecture and assign homework when I was awake, and write a big "read" in the workbook." Li Hua told reporters that her education basically came from her mother.

　　"We are all those who lost at the starting line of education." Li Hua believes, "Education is a mother's intractable knot. She still has the habit of keeping a diary, which shows her unwillingness."

　　When the reporter looked through Xing Xiurong's diary, he found that although some of the text was unclear, he wrote one stroke at a time with extreme earnestness.

　　"Her handwriting is better than mine." Li Hua thinks that if his mother could be admitted to high school that year, maybe everything would change.

　　In Li Hua's memory, the first scene she remembered was "Father cursed and exploded the dirty light bulb in the middle of the roof with tongs. Mother was sitting on the edge of the kang silly and I was crying."

　　"Poorness, laziness, and barrenness gave birth to hostility, a great hostility. I wrestled with this hostility throughout my childhood." Li Hua said that this situation is reflected in a large number of his parents. Every day, every year, never Stop.

　　"I wanted to change everything, but there was no way. When I failed to go to school, I almost committed suicide, but fortunately, apart from all of this, I met literature very early." Li Hua believes that if there is no literature, my own life Unimaginable.

　　Li Hua recalled: "My writing was purely venting at first. Every day I wrote an article or paragraph. I never read what I thought of writing. But day after day, this habit really helped my spirit. It works very well."

　　"I'm a teenager, and my mind is not in the world or the earth, and writing with a pen is the only wooden board I can rely on." Li Hua said, "At the age of 17, I don't think I will really become a poet in the future. I'm not even sure if I will write it down forever, but I admire myself now."

　　Li Hua's light appeared in the autumn of 2020, when he was studying in the local experimental middle school.

She was in the second year of junior high as a transfer student.

　　The two-week campus life made Li Hua very nostalgic. From time to time, she would think of "Beauty" Wei Jia. She said: "Wei Jia has a very kind heart and takes good care of me."

　　In Wei Jia's eyes, "Li Hua is very talented. She is forced to quit school, but she can see that she is still reluctant to part with campus life."

　　Now, with the help of the local government, Li Hua's family has raised 4 cows, and their days are getting better every day.

Li Hua also used the author's remuneration to buy washing machines and bookshelves.

　　The latest good news is that after Li Hua's deeds were reported by the media, the Inner Mongolia Education Department stated that it would continue to help Li Hua study.

　　As a poet, she is now waiting for a call from afar.

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