Cara Delevingne struggled to come to terms with her sexual orientation

Actress and model Cara Delevingne at the Fendi Haute Couture S / S 2021 show -

If Cara Delevingne fully assumes her sexuality today, this has not always been the case.

In fact, the

star

has long repressed her pansexuality, which has had a dramatic impact on her psychological health.

"I didn't know anyone who was gay," the actress explained during a stint on

 Gwyneth Paltrow's

podcast

, adding that she had grown up in a rather conservative family.

“I didn't know what it was and actually I think growing up I wasn't aware that I was homophobic,” she said.

At the time, the mere idea of ​​having a same-sex partner simply "disgusted" her despite the desire she felt.

Everything is not settled

“I correlate it with the massive depression and suicidal times in my life because I was so ashamed to be (pansexual).

But in reality, it was the part of me that I love and accept the most, ”continued Cara Delevingne.

And if the actress is now more in tune with her sexual identity, having also announced to be pansexual not so long ago, doubts remain.

“There's always a part of me that's like, 'Oh, I just wish I was straight.'

There is this side that remains.

It's really complicated, ”adds Cara Delevingne.

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