[In-It] "My life changed after having cancer, I am happy"

"Kim, please go to Lotte Hotel as soon as possible."

That day was the day of the conference presentation.

It seemed to be later than the scheduled time, so I took a taxi in front of Buryaburya Hospital.

The taxi driver looked back at me in the rearview mirror and said, looking back.

"Huh? Isn't that Mr. Beomsuk Kim?"

I was surprised to see a taxi driver called my name that I would never see again.

I glanced at my face and it was the one who was my patient.

Is there such a coincidence in the world?

I first met him about five years ago.

At that time, he was the'guardian' of a patient who was in stage 4 lung cancer, and about four years ago he came to the hospital as a'patient'.

He had already undergone gastric cancer surgery, and apart from that, he also had thymus cancer surgery, which recurred and received reoperation and chemotherapy, and fortunately he was cured.

It's not common to see a guardian as a patient again, but it was amazing and very nice to see him by chance in a taxi.

At this point, it was about a relationship, not a coincidence.

The road to the conference president was more blocked than expected.

He was pleased or told a story that he couldn't usually say in the outpatient clinic.

"I got cancer and it was so. There are rumors that I have cancer, so some of my friends I used to be close to were cancer, and some of my friends came to me worried about what to do, and someone who puts tens of thousands of won in an envelope to pay for hospital expenses. There are some people who ask me to buy me meat.. Those guys are really grateful for giving me the phone. But there are some people who suddenly lose contact, and I have a small amount of cancer insurance, and they ask me to borrow the money to see how I knew it. he's also that. catches suffering from cancer, I have a relationship with buds jeongridoe. They had thought of a friend not a friend ... I'm struck in combat has greatly fraud for some time GNOME if not caught in the arm.

I inde ten thousand and two sons kids Yes When I was young, I was wearing it in my arms or my child. Now that I have grown up and married, I can't say anything like that. If the kids come, it's good or not, I've been saying if I got a call, it's good, and if there's no call, I've been busy, so there's nothing to say that I hate. So, the kids are more comfortable with me because I got cancer, and I need to take care of my bottle, but the person I wait for is my wife. Thank you to my wife.

I was already dead four years ago.

At that time, I met good teachers, received surgery, received radiation treatment, and received chemotherapy, so I am doing well.

If it weren't for the teachers, I would have already eaten sashimi three times.

I have a lot of luck, so I met a lot of good teachers.

Even if I go to the outpatient clinic in case my teachers take up time, I just come out quickly.

I can't even eat at lunch, I seem to go to the outpatient clinic, and there are a lot of patients who are worse than me, but I need such people for long-term counseling.

I'm not particularly sick anymore, so if the test results are okay, they say'thank you'.

I ate well and didn't get sick, and the test result was okay, so I have nothing more to ask.

But it's a pleasure to meet you like this in a taxi today.

Even if I talk a lot today, please understand.

Instead, I'll take you to the Lotte Hotel today.” From

the road conditions seen through the window, no matter how hurried you could go, there seemed to be no way to get there quickly. The road from the hospital to Jonggak Station through the Anguk-dong intersection was crowded, but it was more severe on that day. It wasn't realistic to say that he would go to his destination quickly, it would have been just his heart for me. All I could do in the taxi was to listen to him:

"I'm already dead, and I think that the dead are haunted, so life is completely different.

In the past, I was driving a cab, and I was rasping at someone who suddenly interrupted me, but these days I just want to do that, so I leave it alone.

Whether you suddenly hear me or not, I forget it anyway and don't care after as long as 5 minutes.

It seems like I go out on a picnic every day while driving a taxi.

I think that on sunny days, I just go on a drive trip even if there are no customers.

If there are customers, it's good to go for a drive alone, and if you're hungry, you go to a delicious restaurant and eat.

Some people say they drive a taxi.

There are only a few jobs you can do up to this age.

This job is good because there is no retirement age.

When you see people who carelessly say you drive a taxi, it's like that.

'You don't know what you're doing, but let's see if you can work up to my age'.

I absolutely do not work because it is overwhelming.

I make about 2 million won a month, but I think my wife is like that and leave it alone.

I don't tell you to earn money after you get cancer.

I didn't sit around at home, eat breakfast, go out and come in at dinner, and once a month, I put it in my hand as a salary bag, so I didn't talk much about it.

Even if it's not samsik, where is it?

After having undergone cancer surgery three times, my wife said that.

Thank you for not being dead and alive.

Don't get sick.

Oh, my house eliminated all the rites.

I noticed what the daughters-in-law hated.

No, because the living is more important than the dead, but the living fight because of the dead?

Seeing the atmosphere in the house was not improving, I just asked to get rid of everything.

I wondered if I died, the kids would continue to fight because of my rituals.

I haven't been alive and have no wealth to pass on, but even after I die, I'm a bad guy if I make them harder.

That's why we don't have ceremonies during holidays and just go out to play.

So everyone likes it.

I come harder during the holidays.

This year, we plan on where to go to play.

The cost is equally divided and equals one in N.

Actually, life is short to eat delicious food and to have a good view.

But I don't know why I was fighting like that in the past.

I wrote all the wills and said that when I die, I put on cremation and spray it in the river.

Don't take care of the dead, just have fun with you and the living.

Later, the magazines also want to do that.

Some of my colleagues who drive taxis have died in a car accident.

I said hello in the morning, but when I met at the funeral in the evening, it was so vain...

.

I wondered how lucky I was that I was ready to die without going so suddenly.

It's happy.

Is not it, sir? "

He had the taxi passed Membrane stream when so asked, you do not see the face, sat in the driver's seat seemed to look a look. He seemed to be doing really a happy face.

" Cancer after consuming my life. It's completely changed.

Thank you, teacher.

You were good at cancer treatment and my life changed completely

Thank you very much.

My son said that, it seems like my father's life has been reset.

Heo huh."

I remember he learned little, and others had cancer twice, which others never had. He had cancer surgery three times, and the cancer came back and had to undergo chemotherapy. It's okay now, but when and how. I was in a situation where the cancer might recur, it wasn't economically affluent, but he was saying that he was happy now

. He was a man in the middle, graduated from a university that is said to be the best in Korea, was recognized as a doctor, and had a stable position as a professor. I didn't question the gap between him and me because I knew that happiness wasn't an absolute value, but it made me feel a little more sad because I felt like I was a person who didn't feel happy, because it wasn't a difference in conditions, but a fundamental part.

I said hello to him, got off the taxi, and I thought about it, as there is a reset button on the electronics, it would be nice to have a reset button in our lives sometimes. If I could go back to a certain point, I would be able

to live

very

well

if I could start over.

Of course, it

's like a

dream to the last. There is no reset button that can change the past life. The same change is the depth of life and the relaxed attitude, but I've been thoroughly reading myself, that I haven't met the same reset button yet, and that someday I may also meet something like that.

#Kim Bum-Seok # Some death told life

Bum-Seok Kim,

oncology specialist at Seoul National University Cancer Hospital.

Through chemotherapy, we are helping cancer patients so that the rest of their lives can be significantly extended.

After graduating from Seoul National University College of Medicine and majoring in Internal Medicine at Seoul National University Hospital, he completed a full-time course at the Department of Hematology and Oncology at Seoul National University Hospital.

He is currently working as a clinical professor in the Department of Hematology and Oncology at Seoul National University Hospital, and is active as a member of several societies such as the American Society of Clinical Cancer, European Society of Oncology, and Korean Society for Anticancer Therapy.

He received the grand prize at the 3rd Boryeong Doctor Essay Literature Award, and has also entered the essayist through 《Essay Literature》.

His books include 《A story of chemotherapy that can't be done in the clinic,》 《Hamonica in Heaven》, 《What is chemotherapy》, 《Cancer, I am you, you are you》, and 《The wise hospital life of cancer patients》.