Bataclan survivor: "On the anniversary, memories come back"

Peace, love and death metal - that's the name of the book that Ramón González wrote about surviving the terrorist attack on Bataclan.

And for him, the anniversary is special.

- For the past two or three years, I have hardly thought about it.

You could say that I have overcome it and am stable.

But as the anniversary approaches, the memories come back, says Ramón González.

"Did everything on intuition"

In Peace, Love and Death Metal, González writes:

- There was a time when I said: "God, are you there?

Help me!"

I'm an atheist, I do not believe in God - but in such a desperate and brutal situation, one stops thinking rationally.

When I ran, I did everything on intuition and instinct.

"Deep personal book"

In Peace, Love and Death Metal, Ramón González writes about the girl with short hair who stood to his right, about the couple who stood and kissed at the entrance to the stage floor, about the guy with long hair who danced and jumped like crazy during the first songs.

- The people you met and talked to a bit before the concert started - I wanted to know how it had gone for them.

I have often thought about that, says González.

But Peace, love and death metal is not really so much about the attack on Bataclan, but about trying to live on.

- It is a deeply personal book that describes my experience.

I wanted to focus on what happens next, when no one is talking about it anymore and the victims are trying to find their way back to their lives.

People know least about that.

"Completely irrational action"

Even though it has been five years since the attack, terrorism is far from something that the French can put behind them.

During the autumn, terrorist attacks were directed at the old premises of the satirical magazine Charlie Hebdo and at a French teacher.

But Ramón González sees no point in seeking an answer to the question "why?".

- For me, it is a completely irrational act.

There is no point in trying to justify it because then I think you justify the violence.

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