I admit that no matter how old I am, I can’t pretend to be a girl, but I must never wrong myself, Zheng Xiyi.
"Sister Riding the Wind and Waves" is over, but the life of each sister riding the wind and waves continues.
Some people choose to return to the studio she loves, some get the chance to realize their dreams, and some people are fortunate to be able to take this step at this age...Zheng Xiyi belongs to the latter.
In the year when she was 39 years old, this "sister" who had returned to the family for many years returned to the stage she was familiar with in order to be a role model for her daughter.
Over the past few months, she has never regretted it, and even this woman who made her debut with the "nod to kill" domineering and jumped on the hot search has unexpectedly gained a friendship.
And the group of 30+, 40+, 50+ sisters in front of her also made her finally realize that the "fears" she once thought were actually not worth paying attention to.
Friendship with tranquility starts at the door of the dormitory
"A few girls are noisy together." Recalling the scene of a group of sisters together in her mind, Zheng Xiyi spit out such a sentence unconsciously.
Before participating in "Sister Riding the Wind and Waves", she never expected that she would harvest friendship here, such as tranquility.
"I believe the purpose of our participation in this show is not to make friends."
Before "Sister", Zheng Xiyi also watched other variety shows that Jingping participated in, "I think she is very sharp, and she will be very frustrated by her when offending her." So Zheng Xiyi did not dare to speak to Jingping at first.
What really hit Zheng Xiyi was the group performance in the first stage. Tranquility, A Duo, and Yuan Yonglin performed "Orchid Grass" together. She was shocked by Tranquility's stage appeal, especially when Tranquility shouted: If anyone in her group is eliminated, she Just follow along.
She suddenly realized that the woman in front of her was too handsome.
"Moreover, she is not a professional singer yet, but she is very aura on stage and can hold her back, so I chose her for the next grouping."
After the second performance, she was grouped again. When Zheng Xiyi chose Jingan again, Jingan did not choose her, which made Zheng Xiyi's mood instantly depressed.
When celebrating her work, she didn't stay long and went back to the room.
"I think the real beginning of our friendship was the scene at the door of the dormitory that everyone saw." Jing Jing took the initiative to find Zheng Xiyi and told her why she didn't choose her. "Actually, she doesn't need to explain anything to me, but she still came to find It feels very good for me. I think everyone should open their hearts to say what they want to say."
It was this conversation that let her know that while she cherished tranquility, she was also concerned about her feelings. This was also the starting point for their friendship.
"If we hadn't had that time of heart-to-heart, we might not have much intersection behind us."
Strength does not depend on words, but on others to discover
Zheng Xiyi said that she was determined to participate in "Sister" by plucking up the courage. In the first solo performance session, "I was suffocated when I came to the stage, because I really waited for a long time." She did not deny that. I was nervous once, but thanks to the rich stage experience, "so it's okay."
She was already enjoying the stage when she performed "Unreachable Love" for the first time in a group.
Zheng Xiyi likes the stage.
Now that she comes back again, she has regained her previous enthusiasm.
She also hopes to think back to this time in a few years and appreciate herself, "If I am afraid of competition or elimination, I will feel that I am a good formula." She has always had a "kaner" for herself-that "kaner". "It's her recognition of herself, "Others' recognition of me is less important than my recognition of myself. In life, you still have to face yourself."
Ask her if she has any regrets on stage and on the show?
She said without hesitation: "No, I did everything I wanted to do, playing discs, drums, and singing and dancing, no regrets for me."
After the game, the other sisters were all long-form "small essays", but Zheng Xiyi rarely made comments on social platforms.
"Other sisters may have to say in more detail. I don't think I can say so much. If you understand me, you will understand."
This kind of "what do you say" personality makes people worry about "Will you suffer?" She nodded immediately, "The entertainment industry is fiercely competitive, and you need to express yourself, but you have strength, not you to tell others that you have strength. , But to let others discover that you are capable. "After a few years, everyone thinks she is still capable." I like to hear such words." She sighed, maybe the education given to her family since she was a child is like this, so she has always been This is the attitude of doing things.
Although it will suffer, but it can’t be changed, and I don’t want to change it.
Because only by keeping her personality can she feel comfortable, "Don't wrong yourself."
Willfulness has a price
"I was too fat when I was pregnant. It is 40 pounds fatter than I am now. It is the pinnacle of my life, but I am willing." She wanted to make an excuse for herself, and she would eat randomly after getting fat once, and wanted to try how fat she could be. .
The friends around me are very worried, because Zheng Xiyi is on the verge of diabetes during pregnancy. "But I said I want to be myself, pregnancy is already very hard, I will do what I want to do." Of course, Zheng Xiyi also does it for myself" The "willfulness" paid the "price", "I really lost a lot of time after giving birth, and it took about half a year to get back in shape."
40 years old can no longer pretend to be a girl
"At 40, it's a new stage. I don't want to celebrate my birthday anymore."
Zheng Xiyi was born in 1981, and next year she will reach the threshold of 40 years old.
She said that a friend of hers has celebrated his birthday backwards since he was 40.
The first time she faced anxiety in her life was Zheng Xiyi’s 30th birthday. She thought that the second time she would appear at the age of 40.
"When I reach 40, I really can't pretend to be a girl. I'm not saying I pretend, but I just think that women should learn to face themselves when they are 40. After that, it will be a mature journey."
This is why she chose to start again at the age of 39. "At least she still has the courage and strength now. If you want to do it, you have to do it." She is fortunate that she muster up the courage to participate in "Sister Riding the Wind and Waves."
“I’m here, and I see those female artists of 30+, 40+, and even 50+ who are very good. I don’t see the traces of the years I’m afraid of.” This made her realize that age is for women. It seems that it is not as worthy of anxiety as she imagined, but life can actually be wonderful.
Life events
Three months of continuous shooting, I fell in love with acting ever since
In 2002, Zheng Xiyi made her debut in Hong Kong as a singer.
She still remembers the first two years of her debut. She was very busy, running different announcements basically every day.
In the second year, she received a job for the filming of the film "Assault", directed by Lin Chaoxian, starring Aaron Kwok and Eason Chan.
"At that time, a lot of things were learned while doing. And it was a rare opportunity to work with so many senior actors at the time." Later, she began to take on the play, including Nicholas Tse and Zhang Weijian's "Little Fish" "Children and Flowers", movies "Eternal Regret", "War Drum", etc.
She said that in Hong Kong, it is difficult to be a pure singer, who are all "all-rounders", making records and filming at the same time.
It was the first time Zheng Xiyi had only done this work in three months until the TVB drama "Xiu Cai fell in love with soldiers" aired in 2008.
Because she is the heroine, Zheng Xiyi has been filming every day for at least 18 hours for three months.
She clearly remembered that after work ended at seven in the morning one day, she had only time to take a shower when she went home, and she had to go back to the set to continue filming, "But I chose to go home anyway. I want to see my bed. It will make me feel like I have gone home."
In order to stay awake while driving, Zheng Xiyi slapped herself while driving until the upper and lower eyelids stopped fighting.
"Talents Fall in Love with Soldiers" has also become Zheng Xiyi's favorite work. In addition to the character's personality similar to her, she enjoys acting, but she also learns a lot from trying action scenes.
"I remember there was a big bruise on my chin for several days. It was a scene of throwing a bowl on my chin and it was swollen. But I can’t stop and rest because I’m Actress, I have to stop work after I stop the crew. I apply a thick concealer every day and then continue shooting."
It is precisely because of doing this thing very attentively that Zheng Xiyi found that she fell in love with acting, "I really love to challenge myself, and I can't take time off, you know?" Zheng Xiyi said with a smile.
Going north to the mainland for development, I also want to thank Nicholas
Zheng Xiyi felt that she was very hot in the first few years of her debut. She drove on the radio and heard her own songs in it. The excitement was unprecedented.
There are many fans chasing cars, no matter what activities they participate in, there will be people waiting for her to cheer for her.
But after a few years, fewer and fewer people chased cars, and the frequency of concerts was not so intensive. In the past, two or three records were released in one year, and one in a year later, and no one in the last year. .
"Many things can be felt."
More than once, she wondered whether she was suitable for this business, "Sometimes she thinks, it's better to do business."
Around 2009, Zheng Xiyi's voice suddenly began to become a little hoarse, and her company colleagues suggested that she should concentrate on filming.
The following year, Zheng Xiyi went north.
She filmed three plays in the mainland that year and quickly adapted to the working environment in the mainland. Because she was born in Shanghai, she is no stranger to the mainland, and there are no language difficulties that many Hong Kong artists have been unable to overcome.
"The actors themselves have to go to different places and different environments. I am still very adaptable."
However, she made up her mind to develop in the Mainland, Zheng Xiyi said, thank you Nicholas.
"In fact, during my years in Hong Kong, my biggest gain was the friends and girlfriends around me. Many of us have known each other before we debuted."
Nicholas Tse was considered to be Zheng Xiyi's senior brother in terms of seniority. Once the two happened to work together, Nicholas Tse suggested that she should not go to the mainland. Because the mainland market is large, Zheng Xiyi thought about it and wanted to try more possibilities for herself.
In fact, until now, Zheng Xiyi often asks Nicholas Tse about some work problems, including this time in "Sister Riding the Wind and Waves", "He gave me a lot of information about foreign performances, and as a DJ, he will give me very seriously. opinion."
Zong teaches her daughter to be brave, she must be brave first
In 2012, Zheng Xiyi was injured in an accident.
Life and death, the biggest change brought to her is willing to believe and try marriage.
"I never thought that I would get married before. I always said that I was an unmarriageist." But after that accident, both her and her boyfriend at the time changed. Marriage became the most they chose to cherish each other. Good way.
This is a harvest for Zheng Xiyi, because without marriage, she would not have a daughter.
In the second year after marriage, Zheng Xiyi became pregnant, but her daughter's health was not particularly good after birth. Zheng Xiyi felt that she had to be with her daughter.
Slowly, she realized that the child's growth was really too fast, "I don't want to find out that she can walk and talk suddenly after leaving her for work for three months. I don't want to miss this. "
Therefore, in the following years, Zheng Xiyi chose to focus on her family.
However, she is still an idle mother. When the child was only a few months old, she recognized that she couldn't be a full-time mother.
She decided to realize her ideas for many years-to do some business, she ran her own clothing brand.
"As a result, I found that being a boss was too worrying and I was still a pure actor."
At the beginning of this year, the TV series "Forensic Pioneer 4" in which Zheng Xiyi participated was broadcast, and then she appeared on the stage of "Sister Riding the Wind and Waves". 2020 can be said to be the year of her official comeback.
"The child is older. She is going to school now. I don't need to be by my side. I have always taught her to be brave. I think I want to be brave by myself and show her."
She said that her daughter has always watched "Sister Riding the Wind and Waves", "I practice singing at home, and she will sing with me, and she will also play DJ at home. She also likes what I do, those songs on the show, She has read it countless times and will send it to her classmates." Now when asked what kind of person her daughter wants to be, she would say: Mom.
Written by/Beijing News reporter Zhang Kunyu