As you are, December 2nd, 14:52

My name is Junpei Kazumura.

I'm a 4th year college student who has been suffering from "stuttering" since I was 14 years old.

When I try to talk to people, I get nervous and get stuck in words.

I was afraid to talk to people and I was absent from school.

At one point I even thought "I don't like living", but now I'm thinking "I don't mind being clogged with words".

And I came to want to get a job that supports my child.

There was an encounter with a classroom.

(Kobe Broadcasting Station Director Shunsuke Masaki)

"Osaka Stuttering Class" that does not cure squeaks

"Osaka Stuttering Class" is a self-help group of people who have been stuttering for 5 years.

The meeting is once a week on Friday evening.

More than 20 people from all over the country as well as Kansai will participate.

A squeak that does not speak smoothly.

It is said that there is one in 100 people, and there is no reliable cure.

In this classroom, we are not particular about curing the squeak.

"You can stay as you are."

I aim to live by affirming myself as a squeak.

The curriculum is also unique.

We will provide training to objectively and positively capture the squeak sound, such as giving a name to your own squeak sound and characterizing it, and sharing experiences that made you happy that the squeak sound was accepted by the people around you. ..

Please listen to the video of the usual classroom.

"I'm still fine and screaming."

"I was able to become a human being to understand the feelings of the other person.

"

"When I feel

lonely alone."

People who speak without hiding the squeak.

I was also surprised at first.

Isn't the squeak sound something that has to be cured?

Isn't it embarrassing?

Because I've always thought that way ...

I became a hikikomori with a tight sound

I've always thought that when I talk, I sometimes get stuck, but when I was 14, I was strongly aware that it was a squeak.

I was asked to speak during class, and the first words did not come out.

I can't chat well when I go home with my friends.

"Why can't I just make a voice?"

"I wonder

if I'm the only

one in the world who has these symptoms." At

first, I was confused.

Then, the feelings of "embarrassment" and "coolness" grew.

Gradually I became afraid to talk to people and couldn't go to school.

For four years since then, I have been withdrawn.

"I can't talk to people normally".

I couldn't admit that it was a squeak.

I even thought that I didn't like to live because I was worried.

“Parents don't understand”

I didn't talk to my parents.

Of course to the teacher.

No adult was able to confess his painful feelings.

I always meet my mother when I'm at home.

I think my mother knew from my way of speaking that it was a tight sound.

But my mother somehow urges me to go to school.

Seeing such a mother, I felt like I was blaming me for the squeak.

We didn't talk to each other about the squeaks at all in the house.

I thought, "I can't understand my painful feelings even if I talk to my mother."

I didn't like to see my mother's face and even wanted to live elsewhere.

A painful and lonely withdrawal life for 4 years.

When I turned 18, I suddenly thought.

Nothing changes if you keep your back on the fact of the squeak.

I happened to find out about "Osaka Stuttering Class" on the internet and decided to go there so that I could face it properly.

Changed in "Osaka Stuttering Class"

As I started attending the "Osaka Stuttering Class", my feelings about stuttering changed little by little.

Above all, I was able to meet many people who are working and living well in society while having a squeak.

People in sales jobs, lawyers, school teachers, etc.

Everyone talks about their situation with a cheerful expression, even though they are stuck in words.

What they all have in common is that they all live by affirming themselves as a squeak.

According to what I heard, before everyone else came to this classroom, they lived without interacting with people in order to hide the squeaking noise.

Chie Fujioka, a member of the classroom, is one of them.

I have avoided interacting with people for a long time and have changed jobs.

Then, at the age of 29, he was afraid that his words might get stuck, and he was diagnosed with anxiety by the psychosomatic medicine department.

But when I came to this classroom, I realized that I could get stuck, and now I say, "Don't be afraid to get stuck in words, talk about what you want to say."

Then I was able to get a new job.

Please listen to her thoughts in the video.

Chie Fujioka

"I'm in a good mood now, or I can live because there was a squeak. I'm glad I came here."

Future dream "I want to support a suffering child"

As I went here, I gradually began to want to work to support children who are suffering from school refusal.

I myself was absent from school, so I thought that such an experience would surely live.

I also passed the high school graduation certification exam at the university.

I also take a course to get a teaching license.

On this day, it was the turn of the one-minute speech at the "Osaka Stuttering Class".

For the first time, I talked to everyone about my future dreams.

Please listen for a moment.

Junpei Kazumura

"I had the belief that I couldn't work because there was a squeak, but in reality I felt that wasn't the case. Now I'm a school teacher or a childcare worker. I'm thinking of getting a job that I'm aiming for and often talk to. "

After the class on that day, a man in the same 4th grade as me called out to me.

A man who goes to the classroom

"I'm going to work in sales, but I think it's hard to hear that Mr. Kazumura is aiming for a school teacher in the speech, but I'll support you."

It was a moment when I thought I wasn't alone.

I have the courage to speak openly and openly in front of other people, even if I am stuck in words.

I talked to my mother about the squeak for the first time

I had a person I wanted to talk to when aiming for a job involving children.

I'm my mother.

My mother once asked me to stop working, which often involves people.

It's no wonder that I've been watching me suffering for a long time.

That's why I couldn't say my dream of becoming a school teacher and supporting a suffering child.

However, I should convey the thoughts that I cherish, no matter what the other person says.

On this day, for the first time, I hit my mother face-to-face with my thoughts.

I "What do you think

about getting a

teacher's license at university?"

Mother "

I'm

really worried if Junpei gets the job."

I "Are you happy?"

Mother "

I'm

more anxious. One of the difficult professions. I think it's going to happen. "

I

said," Even if

I went to the Osaka Roaring Class, there were many people who had sales jobs or jobs that talked to people, and I changed my mindset that I could talk to people. "

Mother" Parents I'm overprotected and I'm worried, so the worried people come first, but if I still want to do it, Junpei will support

me

if I want to do it. "

I" I will contact you when I get a job. "

Mother" Fun I'm just worried about my dad and that. "

It was the first time I had talked about my mother and the sound.

It was the first time I realized that my mother wasn't blaming me during the withdrawal, but was worried about me.

Toward a dream

I'm actually moving towards my dream now.

I am aiming to work with children while undergoing educational training in kindergarten.

Anxiety is an interview test.

But I don't mind being stuck in words, so I want to convey my thoughts properly.

Be yourself with the squeak.

I will walk forward step by step.

Kobe Broadcasting Station Director

Shunsuke Masaki